Birthday party?
Well my aunt's birthday party was certainly awkward and unnerving. I walked in to see none other than my other aunt and my uncle there (parents of my cousin). My first urge was to immediately turn around, head back to my car, and drive home. For the sake of my other aunt, however, I stuck around and spent my time in the kitchen playing Kirby Squeak Squad. Great game, by the way, much kudos to Austin for letting me borrow it
Of course, someone couldn't keep their fat mouth shut and had to tell the both of them that I was there. Just before they left, my aunt (mother of my cousin if you're a little confused) come up to me, asked me what I was playing, and then proceeded to hug me and kiss me and tell me that she still loved me no matter what and that she was sorry she couldn't be there for part of my life and stuff. She also said that she would really like it if I went to my grandma's Easter barbeque tomorrow, and that all three of my cousins would be there.
I don't know, I think I half believe her. Part of me really is sad that we were all so distant for so long. She was probably my favorite aunt after all. Another part of me is wondering whether going to my grandmother's house tomorrow would be like walking into the lions den. Granted I'm sure that my cousin and I would be able to keep quite a fair distance between us, but I just don't think I'm ready to be around him without some kind of constant chaperone. I would say that my parents might be those chaperones, but they're both so involved with talking to everyone else and helping out that I wouldn't be able to rely on them to be right next to me the whole time. Honestly, I'm probably going to need someone like Austin to be there when that happens. There's whole tons of issues with that, both on his side and on mine. That's why I think I'm just going to stay home, even if my parents and Hannah decide to go. Without that kind of support I wouldn't be able to feel safe.
We shall see.
Of course, someone couldn't keep their fat mouth shut and had to tell the both of them that I was there. Just before they left, my aunt (mother of my cousin if you're a little confused) come up to me, asked me what I was playing, and then proceeded to hug me and kiss me and tell me that she still loved me no matter what and that she was sorry she couldn't be there for part of my life and stuff. She also said that she would really like it if I went to my grandma's Easter barbeque tomorrow, and that all three of my cousins would be there.
I don't know, I think I half believe her. Part of me really is sad that we were all so distant for so long. She was probably my favorite aunt after all. Another part of me is wondering whether going to my grandmother's house tomorrow would be like walking into the lions den. Granted I'm sure that my cousin and I would be able to keep quite a fair distance between us, but I just don't think I'm ready to be around him without some kind of constant chaperone. I would say that my parents might be those chaperones, but they're both so involved with talking to everyone else and helping out that I wouldn't be able to rely on them to be right next to me the whole time. Honestly, I'm probably going to need someone like Austin to be there when that happens. There's whole tons of issues with that, both on his side and on mine. That's why I think I'm just going to stay home, even if my parents and Hannah decide to go. Without that kind of support I wouldn't be able to feel safe.
We shall see.