lost at sea
happy easter! is it still easter?! hmmm...so i don't even know what the hell i'm doing.
it's late and i have no idea why i decided to write in this thing
when the only reason i ever created it was to comment on holden's <3
journals. i mean it's not like anyone is going to read it...it doesn't seem
to be a big thing in new york. heh. and i don't even know if i want people
to. hell, maybe i'll just write in it when i feel like i need to get something
out. yeah...that works.
anyway, i'm taking off tomorrow basically because mom is letting me.
i need to do my homework...i can't let this relationship
distract me. thinking about "this relationship," he is amazing.
i have never felt such a feeling of peace as i do when i lay in bed
with my eyes closed talking to him on the phone. i missed him soooo
much this weekend. our first apart. it's okay though, because we'll
make up for it next weekend. i feel kind of better...i'm almost afraid to
write it. i mean i don't feel like i have as much anxiety and i feel
like maybe there is some hope. maybe i'll feel alive again? ::sigh::
it's too much to think about right now.
sleep solves everything, only if it is just for a few hours.
i love you holden.
capitallar.
...ever so sweet
you make this seem
the way things go
its not my fault
and i'll miss
i'll miss you so good
through all of those nights
we lost our way back home...
it's late and i have no idea why i decided to write in this thing
when the only reason i ever created it was to comment on holden's <3
journals. i mean it's not like anyone is going to read it...it doesn't seem
to be a big thing in new york. heh. and i don't even know if i want people
to. hell, maybe i'll just write in it when i feel like i need to get something
out. yeah...that works.
anyway, i'm taking off tomorrow basically because mom is letting me.
i need to do my homework...i can't let this relationship
distract me. thinking about "this relationship," he is amazing.
i have never felt such a feeling of peace as i do when i lay in bed
with my eyes closed talking to him on the phone. i missed him soooo
much this weekend. our first apart. it's okay though, because we'll
make up for it next weekend. i feel kind of better...i'm almost afraid to
write it. i mean i don't feel like i have as much anxiety and i feel
like maybe there is some hope. maybe i'll feel alive again? ::sigh::
it's too much to think about right now.
sleep solves everything, only if it is just for a few hours.
i love you holden.
capitallar.
...ever so sweet
you make this seem
the way things go
its not my fault
and i'll miss
i'll miss you so good
through all of those nights
we lost our way back home...