i sort of miss you, lj.
last time i wrote in this thing it was december. i've been here almost six months which is so hard to fathom. six months...and how different everything is now. i kind of forgot about this and i'm going to be honest and say i've been too lazy/busy to update at all. i think i wanted to leave the last entry all about how i was feeling the moment before i left australia. what really provoked me to write in here again was my car ride to eaton rapids yesterday. for some reason car rides always inspire me to think about my life or something. but now that i'm writing this i just feel dumb.
i think i'm in love with life right now. my car ride made me think about how good everything is. i thought about how much i will actually miss doing maintenance at munn for these 4 days. i love working there so much. if possible, love could be an understatement. i enjoy going there, and when i'm not there i feel like i'm missing out. the boys have become my really good friends i guess. now that i think about it, how could they not? i spend 8 hours a day with them 5 days a week. then amanda came and i had a female counterpart. i've started to talk like them (abriv.ing left and right and talking with a canadian accent on my "oouts". thank you, msu hockey team)and they are the people i spend the most time with! i never thought that doing physical labor at an ice arena would be so fascinating, but it really is.
my first semester at state was amazing to say the least. i think i'm in love with that too. i love campus, and now that it's summer, it is so pretty. i won't lie, it was so depressing the first two weeks with everyone gone. it was SO empty and i missed seeing familiar faces when i was walking somewhere. i never thought i would miss the dorms so much, but i do. there was always someone to waste time with. i really miss our going out three night a week-ers...and the caf talks the next morning about what happened. ahh the caf,where people watching became my favorite past-time. when i think about it, i'm not really in the apartment that much. i work, go to class, and sleep basically. i guess living off cottage cheese and bag salads is okay?
i've met so many people during the past few months. it's hard to think about the fact that around christmas time, i didn't even know the people i now call my closest friends. i think about what life would be like if i wasn't put on my floor. the people i would and wouldn't know. whitney and i talk every single day like we are dating and i love it. i miss having her across the hall so bad. we would talk about our infatuations at least once a day (maybe that was just me...). if something exciting happened, we told the uninvolved counterpart immediatley after the occurrence. even something dumb like..."i just saw so and so leaving blah building" would at least call for a text. haha what is wrong with us. the fact that i might not have met her at all if i wasn't put on our floor really makes me think. (wow we really are MARRIED). i also thought about how far i've drifted from everyone else. don't get me wrong, in australia, hardly anyone from mercy kept in contact with me, so when i walked down the street and we pretended like we didn't know each other i guess i couldn't be surprised. ..but i was surprised. this is where the awkward rules of when to say hi, when not to say hi apply. but thats a whole different story. i guess drifting away from the people i never thought i would was inevitable. i can't honestly say whether or not i have personally changed or not...but from my point of view they have. i feel like people are so different that they just need to change their names ...or something;they aren't even who i used to know.
i miss my family terribly. 3/4 are coming home very very soon. i can't wait! i think being gone has made me appreciate them more than i ever could. i know they are struggling over there and occasionally i feel guilty that i am over here instead of my mom. she misses it so much, and i'm so lucky to be here. i can't wait till they come back for good!!
okay, this was a huge long novel of my life, but i just wanted to document it for later reference.
hope everyone is well and enjoying the long weekend and nice weather. <3
PS! i don't know if anyone reads this anymore...but
if you come down to eastlansing PLEASE call me to visssit!!!
i think i'm in love with life right now. my car ride made me think about how good everything is. i thought about how much i will actually miss doing maintenance at munn for these 4 days. i love working there so much. if possible, love could be an understatement. i enjoy going there, and when i'm not there i feel like i'm missing out. the boys have become my really good friends i guess. now that i think about it, how could they not? i spend 8 hours a day with them 5 days a week. then amanda came and i had a female counterpart. i've started to talk like them (abriv.ing left and right and talking with a canadian accent on my "oouts". thank you, msu hockey team)and they are the people i spend the most time with! i never thought that doing physical labor at an ice arena would be so fascinating, but it really is.
my first semester at state was amazing to say the least. i think i'm in love with that too. i love campus, and now that it's summer, it is so pretty. i won't lie, it was so depressing the first two weeks with everyone gone. it was SO empty and i missed seeing familiar faces when i was walking somewhere. i never thought i would miss the dorms so much, but i do. there was always someone to waste time with. i really miss our going out three night a week-ers...and the caf talks the next morning about what happened. ahh the caf,where people watching became my favorite past-time. when i think about it, i'm not really in the apartment that much. i work, go to class, and sleep basically. i guess living off cottage cheese and bag salads is okay?
i've met so many people during the past few months. it's hard to think about the fact that around christmas time, i didn't even know the people i now call my closest friends. i think about what life would be like if i wasn't put on my floor. the people i would and wouldn't know. whitney and i talk every single day like we are dating and i love it. i miss having her across the hall so bad. we would talk about our infatuations at least once a day (maybe that was just me...). if something exciting happened, we told the uninvolved counterpart immediatley after the occurrence. even something dumb like..."i just saw so and so leaving blah building" would at least call for a text. haha what is wrong with us. the fact that i might not have met her at all if i wasn't put on our floor really makes me think. (wow we really are MARRIED). i also thought about how far i've drifted from everyone else. don't get me wrong, in australia, hardly anyone from mercy kept in contact with me, so when i walked down the street and we pretended like we didn't know each other i guess i couldn't be surprised. ..but i was surprised. this is where the awkward rules of when to say hi, when not to say hi apply. but thats a whole different story. i guess drifting away from the people i never thought i would was inevitable. i can't honestly say whether or not i have personally changed or not...but from my point of view they have. i feel like people are so different that they just need to change their names ...or something;they aren't even who i used to know.
i miss my family terribly. 3/4 are coming home very very soon. i can't wait! i think being gone has made me appreciate them more than i ever could. i know they are struggling over there and occasionally i feel guilty that i am over here instead of my mom. she misses it so much, and i'm so lucky to be here. i can't wait till they come back for good!!
okay, this was a huge long novel of my life, but i just wanted to document it for later reference.
hope everyone is well and enjoying the long weekend and nice weather. <3
PS! i don't know if anyone reads this anymore...but
if you come down to eastlansing PLEASE call me to visssit!!!