mixed feelings
For one year and two months I have never lied to him. It hurts me alot when he lies to me so easily because i put so much trust in him. What else has he lied about? Everything i doubt becomes more of a doubt because i can see that he would lie about other girls because he knows i would be upset if he flirted with them. But the thing is he lies about things that are so small... it makes me think that he must lie often and these are just the things ive caught him with. If Rommel didn't let it slip... even he wished to play along... but if he didn't i would never have known it was a lie and mark would just go along with it and lie about it every time. It is so hard for me to think of it... Someone.. the only one that i have trusted completely and whole-heartedly... lies to me, hurts me, yells at me... conspires with other people to lie to me? but why? i dont understand. we promised to tell each other everything. I'm scared if he reads this he'll yell at me. I didn't even say anything to him all i did was i said i was going to go home and he got mad at me and wouldn't let me leave. He told me for one year and two months i have controlled him and had him on a leash and he would no longer allow it. the things he says to me hurt me so much. He blames me for everything... I don't know what to do, how to make it better but not allow myself to be taken advantage of, how to do it without making him angry...the thing is he lied to me but he was so sweet about it. He asked me to come and he went with me to get food, he sat with me in the car, he invited me over... it makes me think that all those times he was sweet... was there something he wasn't telling me? I don't know what to think
i've even gone as far as thinking that everything was a lie. He tells me that he has to lie to me because of me. Because of what i would do if he didnt lie. he says he has to be better for me, maybe the entire "him" while he is around me is a lie. Maybe he keeps me away from his friends on purpose because he acts different around them. It does seem that the only other people we hang out with is my friends...
I hate liars.
It hurts. alot.
i've even gone as far as thinking that everything was a lie. He tells me that he has to lie to me because of me. Because of what i would do if he didnt lie. he says he has to be better for me, maybe the entire "him" while he is around me is a lie. Maybe he keeps me away from his friends on purpose because he acts different around them. It does seem that the only other people we hang out with is my friends...
I hate liars.
It hurts. alot.