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I'm not much of an EMO sorta guy. But I must say, today has been an EMO sorta day, if I've ever had one. Truth is, CoSA is getting on my nerves. Or rather, Opperation Youth 'Let's fuckin' SOB bout our life' Voices. I swear, I have never been so drained from one project before. Don't get me wrong. CoSA is wonderful. There are the great teachers (aka. Benning, Y, Wolf, Venessa) and then there are the not so great teachers (aka. figure it out for yourself). The only thing really keeping me in CoSA, most of all, are the relationships I've made in CoSA...that probably means the most to me right now. I'm really not learning much. If anything, I'm learning to rush and do a piss poor job on something that would normally take four to six months to create. Then again, to work on OY[LFSBOL]V for six months, that would be rather dissapointing and very-well, very fucking rediculous if I must say so myself. Slowly my project seems to be withering into crap. First my dancer injures herself and secondly my guitarist skips out on his commitment towards me and this project, making it all the harder for myself, Lana, and...well, Claire, I guess-to perform our piece. Then again, I don't blame Thomas for backing out. I probably would've dont the same thing.
Enough of that. OH! I FAILED my drivers test today! WAHOO! Yah! Me! Anyhow-ENOUGH!
I'm having trouble with something. I don't know how to articulate such troubles. I regret...
First, do you have many regrets? Is there anything you wish you could do over again or anything you wish you could just go out and say cause you know it's gonna make you feel better if you do (LONG SENTENCE). I've been thinking a lot about this whole lil thing called love. Does it exist? I'm begining to think, 'no'. Nothing ever seems to turn out the way it should, or maybe the way I think it should. Love can be shit sometimes.
Oh, well. That's life, right? You don't always get what you want....
"You can't always get what you want." - Rolling Stone, DA STONES!
I'm such a hyprocrite. Really. I talk about Sob Stories. I'm the FUCKIN' SOB. I'm not asking for sympathy. I'm just being stupid. "Opperation I'm the FUCKIN' SOB Story." I'm starting to think that I'm not good enough for this CoSA thing. Maybe Nicole is right, I'm not cut out for CoSA. Or maybe I should stick to my gut and stay. That's what I want to do. But if she's gonna nag me every fucking day, I'd rather walk. But I'm NOT going to. I have to keep telling myself that. (SIGH) I'm such the lame as mother fucker.
WHIP IT OUT! WHIP IT GOOD!
Sherri Ann Cabot:
Leslie and I have an amazing relationship and it's very physical, he still pushes all my buttons. People say 'oh but he's so much older than you' and you know what, I'm the one having to push him away. We have so much in common, we both love soup and snow peas, we love the outdoors, and talking and not talking. We could not talk or talk forever and still find things to not talk about.
- NAME THIS QUOTE!!!!
P.S Truth is, there's only one thing keeping me in CoSA right now...hopefully it lasts.
Enough of that. OH! I FAILED my drivers test today! WAHOO! Yah! Me! Anyhow-ENOUGH!
I'm having trouble with something. I don't know how to articulate such troubles. I regret...
First, do you have many regrets? Is there anything you wish you could do over again or anything you wish you could just go out and say cause you know it's gonna make you feel better if you do (LONG SENTENCE). I've been thinking a lot about this whole lil thing called love. Does it exist? I'm begining to think, 'no'. Nothing ever seems to turn out the way it should, or maybe the way I think it should. Love can be shit sometimes.
Oh, well. That's life, right? You don't always get what you want....
"You can't always get what you want." - Rolling Stone, DA STONES!
I'm such a hyprocrite. Really. I talk about Sob Stories. I'm the FUCKIN' SOB. I'm not asking for sympathy. I'm just being stupid. "Opperation I'm the FUCKIN' SOB Story." I'm starting to think that I'm not good enough for this CoSA thing. Maybe Nicole is right, I'm not cut out for CoSA. Or maybe I should stick to my gut and stay. That's what I want to do. But if she's gonna nag me every fucking day, I'd rather walk. But I'm NOT going to. I have to keep telling myself that. (SIGH) I'm such the lame as mother fucker.
WHIP IT OUT! WHIP IT GOOD!
Sherri Ann Cabot:
Leslie and I have an amazing relationship and it's very physical, he still pushes all my buttons. People say 'oh but he's so much older than you' and you know what, I'm the one having to push him away. We have so much in common, we both love soup and snow peas, we love the outdoors, and talking and not talking. We could not talk or talk forever and still find things to not talk about.
- NAME THIS QUOTE!!!!
P.S Truth is, there's only one thing keeping me in CoSA right now...hopefully it lasts.