rant-age
The Moment of Truth is the most horrible show on TV today. "Let's sabotage our relationships for the sake of money!" Smooth. American Idol is meh, too. I know too many of the singers for my own good, all thanks to my roommate who watches it religiously. I can't wait to go home this weekend and actually be able to have full control of the TV. And I'm going to be home this summer, thank god.
I should be studying for orgo, but I'm being a meh and not doing that. It bothers me how insecure I am in myself, and how vulnerable I feel. I guess I'm getting to the root of the issue, and that's good, but at the same time, it makes me feel uggggh. I just want to be okay in myself so I can show my real self to people without being ashamed and closing myself up. It's probably going to take some time, of course... I just wish things fixed themselves a hell of a lot quicker than this. I don't want any kind of intimacy to be embarrassing anymore. I know I have friends who don't judge me, but for the people who do judge me, I want to be prepared.
Things will hopefully get better. All we can do is strive for improvement, right?
Okay, off to study for that orgo test.
I should be studying for orgo, but I'm being a meh and not doing that. It bothers me how insecure I am in myself, and how vulnerable I feel. I guess I'm getting to the root of the issue, and that's good, but at the same time, it makes me feel uggggh. I just want to be okay in myself so I can show my real self to people without being ashamed and closing myself up. It's probably going to take some time, of course... I just wish things fixed themselves a hell of a lot quicker than this. I don't want any kind of intimacy to be embarrassing anymore. I know I have friends who don't judge me, but for the people who do judge me, I want to be prepared.
Things will hopefully get better. All we can do is strive for improvement, right?
Okay, off to study for that orgo test.