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Why do i come here to write what i feel? Maybe cause i have nowhere else to go...
I remember so sadly when i used to post about Eric... well he showed up in my life again and i thought things were ok, til he almost said my problems were nothing... and then he started talking about how much i hurt him in the past cause i didnt want a long distance relationship with him, sad huh? We ended up fighting and he ended up hurting me again...
Why does this keep happening to me? Isnt enough with what i have at home? I am tired, god... if i could just sleep today and not wake up tomorrow...
Maybe thats the reason why i have been feeling so tired lately even when i dont do shit... i spend half day sleeping, and half day online...its so sad how i am trying to avoid my reality and how it doesnt work and just makes things worse?
I swear to god i cant keep going...i just cant! This hurts so much... and the worst is that i feel so lonely.... and its now when i remembere Chema´s words : " The problem with you is that you cant be alone, you are so dependant... "
I hated him for saying that and its so true... i feel so lost now...and geez...i just think over and over about how bad my self esteem is... and geez i just hate myself....
If i had the guts i would kill myself...but unfortunately i have been wanting to do it for so long but... i just cant do it...
I remember so sadly when i used to post about Eric... well he showed up in my life again and i thought things were ok, til he almost said my problems were nothing... and then he started talking about how much i hurt him in the past cause i didnt want a long distance relationship with him, sad huh? We ended up fighting and he ended up hurting me again...
Why does this keep happening to me? Isnt enough with what i have at home? I am tired, god... if i could just sleep today and not wake up tomorrow...
Maybe thats the reason why i have been feeling so tired lately even when i dont do shit... i spend half day sleeping, and half day online...its so sad how i am trying to avoid my reality and how it doesnt work and just makes things worse?
I swear to god i cant keep going...i just cant! This hurts so much... and the worst is that i feel so lonely.... and its now when i remembere Chema´s words : " The problem with you is that you cant be alone, you are so dependant... "
I hated him for saying that and its so true... i feel so lost now...and geez...i just think over and over about how bad my self esteem is... and geez i just hate myself....
If i had the guts i would kill myself...but unfortunately i have been wanting to do it for so long but... i just cant do it...