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um... yeah. damn. know what scares me? the only thing that really does ? failure and myself....... I dunno, something snapped today and it almost made me do something I wouldn't have done ever. Why do I let stupid little things agitate me, its not their fault, they aren't to blame for it. Am I just afraid of losing her and watching her not help herself. Or am I just really fucked up and let the things I vowed to never become come. Fuck. Is that the reason why I don't want him around, because I see myself in him or am I justifying what I percieve to be wrong on him. I dunno anymore. Am I just trying to be rebellious to get away and be independant. Sometimes I think I am but don't feel like I actually could do it. And thats another thing that scares me, if I could explode at her, who else.... all these people and I don't deserve their love at all. Grr.
Enough of me.
I'll leave you all now, gotta finish up a lot of homework.
Enough of me.
I'll leave you all now, gotta finish up a lot of homework.