Hmm
I think I've figured out why I don't post more of my writing, more fics.
I don't have any confidence in them. I don't believe in my ability to tell a story. I come up with ideas that I think are good and I write them down and then after a while I start doubting myself and questioning what I was thinking and then I just give up, figuring that nobody would want to read a stupid story about _____, telling myself it was a dumb idea anyway and what's the point, etc.
I'm not setting out to sabotage myself. I really WANT to write fics. People seem to like and appreciate the writing I've posted so far, so I don't think that's the problem, either.
I can't figure this out. I'm a strong writer, I know I am. Grammar and mechanics are sometimes a sticking point for me because I missed out on instruction in a few of the rules, but for the most part I believe in my ability to write prose, to edit, to beta. In school, I made excellent grades in English and creative writing courses, in poetry and drama. I even won awards and scholarships based on my writing. So why is this happening to me? It's not logical.
o_O WTF is wrong and how do I fix it?
I don't have any confidence in them. I don't believe in my ability to tell a story. I come up with ideas that I think are good and I write them down and then after a while I start doubting myself and questioning what I was thinking and then I just give up, figuring that nobody would want to read a stupid story about _____, telling myself it was a dumb idea anyway and what's the point, etc.
I'm not setting out to sabotage myself. I really WANT to write fics. People seem to like and appreciate the writing I've posted so far, so I don't think that's the problem, either.
I can't figure this out. I'm a strong writer, I know I am. Grammar and mechanics are sometimes a sticking point for me because I missed out on instruction in a few of the rules, but for the most part I believe in my ability to write prose, to edit, to beta. In school, I made excellent grades in English and creative writing courses, in poetry and drama. I even won awards and scholarships based on my writing. So why is this happening to me? It's not logical.
o_O WTF is wrong and how do I fix it?