Outer Space Calling

[illuins_lair]

Because. You. Know. You. Want. To. Know.

Just some updates in case anyone will make a movie out of my life one day:

And yes: I am mostly here for the slash. To indulge in it. To admire the talent of others. To finally be part of fandom. And to at last - give the well-deserved feedback I have been missing out on. Payback is my quest. Feedback

Comments

[lireeli]

I do love Orlijah too ;), even if I'm also a C/Z girl! ( at the beginning I was a Domlijah fan but it seems to disappear nowadays ...
I also choose my wars carefully but instead of you I think I'm an angry kind of person. Not in surface, nope, but deep inside I am. I was raised in a very catholic family and I have kept from this time the anger, the deception, the unfairness, the danger of religion...And I am so proud to be an atheist person :)
*hugs tight*

[illuins_lair]

Well I guess preferences changes sometimes, what seemed appealing once looks suddenly ordinary the next time... I don´t know why I´m stuck on the Orlijah-train really =D
C/Z - still have to check those out more closely ..

Oh, do you feel like the religion has made you angry? And then you have broken out of it? This is really intresting..

*snuggles*

[lireeli]

No religion didn't made me angry right away...It has wanted to wash my brain and make me more of a hater than a good people... I had to fight to be me . I have to fight the guilt and the fear it puts in me.I have trouble to forgive the religion for the wrong it did to me. I'm angry with fanatics people. I'm angry my parents love me less than their religion. But it's not about people who believes in God and lives in peace with the world...more about the fanatics...
Am I confused? :D

[illuins_lair]

you are absolutely not confused! I understand your every word!! This is exactly what I think too - the fanatic side of religion.. or like; religion when it gets too caught up in itself and starts to judge behind the mask of it - it gets dangerous

[lireeli]

Oh thank you for understanding me so completely!! :) It seems we have pretty much similar belief concerning faith!! ;) It does call for a late night philosophical discussion! Hope you weren't so far away!! ;)
When I let my religion behind me I have become totally " naked" in front of my future, in front of life and dead. Sometimes it's really scary and I understand the need to believe for others people, but nudity is better than heavy coat made of guilt and chains.

[illuins_lair]

Oh guilt & chains are heavy cloaks indeed...

I consider it a very important step to demask oneself and open up; as you say - become naked in front of life! To de-colour what we have been coloured by, or something - a very important Phoenix-process/rebirth/transition.. It´s really to welcome the unknown I guess, to learn to be humble and to find your own way, to find the inner reference-point instead of an outer one. The road to transparency!