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since nobody reads this but me i get to write wutever i want....
sometimes the things that u want and get arent as good as wut u expected or maybe u still want something more. i feel so alone, i hate the feeling of having nobody to talk to or o hang with. u no how they say that everything bad that u do will come back 3 fold? well do u think that this is my revenge? i mean i no ive done some pretty f-ed up things in my short life but damn this is just mean. i dont no i mean i want somebody there, someone to talk to even if its just shit talking. i want someone to pick my boogers with and thats not fair. why cant i have that somebody. i dont no i just want a freind. its like i have nobody. u no wut it is that im writing a letter to my therapist becuase i dont talk to him anymore. thats sad. i wanted some people around me to go throgh this experience with me. u no the whole BECOMMING THE NEW ME thing but i dont and that sux. ok new thing
OK theres a new guy hell i dont no if hes new or old. i really like him and i dont no why. hes all wrong for me i hean hes older and more experienced then me and i dont no why but i feel attracted to him. maybe is because hes actually showing me some sign of interest.i dont no i mean i feel for him things that ive never felt before and maybe its beucase now since im thinner i have more self confidence and so im putting myself out there but i feel as if this is my first crush/fling post-op and its not going anywhee. i wanna b able to talk to him about it and tell him what i really feel but im just scared of his reaction. i dont no wut to do. hell i just want him to cal me. ive never been the type to sit by the fone and wish a guy would call. ive always said that i would never let a guy get under my skin like that but he ha. im letting my guard down and i hate it.
sometimes the things that u want and get arent as good as wut u expected or maybe u still want something more. i feel so alone, i hate the feeling of having nobody to talk to or o hang with. u no how they say that everything bad that u do will come back 3 fold? well do u think that this is my revenge? i mean i no ive done some pretty f-ed up things in my short life but damn this is just mean. i dont no i mean i want somebody there, someone to talk to even if its just shit talking. i want someone to pick my boogers with and thats not fair. why cant i have that somebody. i dont no i just want a freind. its like i have nobody. u no wut it is that im writing a letter to my therapist becuase i dont talk to him anymore. thats sad. i wanted some people around me to go throgh this experience with me. u no the whole BECOMMING THE NEW ME thing but i dont and that sux. ok new thing
OK theres a new guy hell i dont no if hes new or old. i really like him and i dont no why. hes all wrong for me i hean hes older and more experienced then me and i dont no why but i feel attracted to him. maybe is because hes actually showing me some sign of interest.i dont no i mean i feel for him things that ive never felt before and maybe its beucase now since im thinner i have more self confidence and so im putting myself out there but i feel as if this is my first crush/fling post-op and its not going anywhee. i wanna b able to talk to him about it and tell him what i really feel but im just scared of his reaction. i dont no wut to do. hell i just want him to cal me. ive never been the type to sit by the fone and wish a guy would call. ive always said that i would never let a guy get under my skin like that but he ha. im letting my guard down and i hate it.