woah...how things change
It's been quite a while since I last wrote in here, and boy have things changed! Timm and I are taking a break for about a year. It took a good month or so to make it final, move his things out, and rearrange our schedules, but I think we've come to a pretty good conclusion. We are still friends and we see each other a lot, but we're not living together and we're working on our own, individual lives for a while. I know that I will marry him someday, so I'm not trippin over it, but he is cause I'm the one who proposed it so naturally he's going to feel a lil rejected. I wish I could get through to him and make him understand that no one in the world can take his place and I will always come back to him. But I haven't been on my own since I was 15, and I just don't think it's healthy for us to only be with one person our whole lives. I don't want another relationship, but I want to date and meet new, different people.
That said, the exact opposite is happening! I been talking to this guy for a couple weeks now, and I have to fight with all my strength not to fall totally, head over heals in love with him! He's just so nice to me and he makes me smile any time I think of him or hear from him. He has 3 jobs...emt, fire fighter, and phlebotomist. He's FINE AS HELL and he's such a gentleman! He's totally not my type because he's not all tatted and he has no felony charges (LOL) but that's what I like about him:) He says the sweetest things to me and I have so much fun just chillen with him. Oh man, I'm in big trouble!
I think it was about 2 weeks ago when I got super wasted at the bar, went into the ladies room, and called......Matt! FINALLY! I don't know what made me do it, but I just upped and walked away from everyone, dialed his number, and said, WHAT UP NIGGA? lol. He sounded real happy to hear from me, and I told him that no matter what drama went down, I always considered him a friend and I missed hanging out with him. I just wanted my fucking closure! Maybe I sounded too nice or something, cause now dude wont get off the nut sack! If there's one thing I can't stand, it's someone who's that over-eager and needy. He totally turned me off with that shit! I can't believe I spent so much time obsessing over him when he's acting like a total dork right now! I am just keeping my distance from him, not gonna go kick it or anything else until/if he settles down and there's been more time between mine and Timm's breakup. I sure as shit don't want Timm to find out and think I left him for Matt! No fuckin way!
My sister was on leave over Thanksgiving weekend and she looks so good! She gained weight and got her teeth fixed and everyone is just so happy to see her doing so well! She will be home for Christmas, too!
So, lots of changes, but they are much needed, positive changes that had to happen sooner or later. Who knows what will happen next!?!
That said, the exact opposite is happening! I been talking to this guy for a couple weeks now, and I have to fight with all my strength not to fall totally, head over heals in love with him! He's just so nice to me and he makes me smile any time I think of him or hear from him. He has 3 jobs...emt, fire fighter, and phlebotomist. He's FINE AS HELL and he's such a gentleman! He's totally not my type because he's not all tatted and he has no felony charges (LOL) but that's what I like about him:) He says the sweetest things to me and I have so much fun just chillen with him. Oh man, I'm in big trouble!
I think it was about 2 weeks ago when I got super wasted at the bar, went into the ladies room, and called......Matt! FINALLY! I don't know what made me do it, but I just upped and walked away from everyone, dialed his number, and said, WHAT UP NIGGA? lol. He sounded real happy to hear from me, and I told him that no matter what drama went down, I always considered him a friend and I missed hanging out with him. I just wanted my fucking closure! Maybe I sounded too nice or something, cause now dude wont get off the nut sack! If there's one thing I can't stand, it's someone who's that over-eager and needy. He totally turned me off with that shit! I can't believe I spent so much time obsessing over him when he's acting like a total dork right now! I am just keeping my distance from him, not gonna go kick it or anything else until/if he settles down and there's been more time between mine and Timm's breakup. I sure as shit don't want Timm to find out and think I left him for Matt! No fuckin way!
My sister was on leave over Thanksgiving weekend and she looks so good! She gained weight and got her teeth fixed and everyone is just so happy to see her doing so well! She will be home for Christmas, too!
So, lots of changes, but they are much needed, positive changes that had to happen sooner or later. Who knows what will happen next!?!