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I'll marry... Ty? Wtf.
Well. I had a mental breakdown yesterday. Rikke (my boss) talked with me about how the 'others' has complained about my attitude. Apparently, I grumble too much, according to 'them'. And I know who 'them' is. Inge is the only person who could've complained over me, and I really hate her for that. I sat in the back of the boutique for 15 minutes, sobbing. It was a slap in the face, and it simply culminated with every bit of bad thing in m life recently. My bandana. School. My friends.
What annoys me is that everybody thinks I cry myself out of the situation. They didn't see me cry, they just saw me whipe my eyes. The worst is, that 10 minutes after I was 'done', I went by a table. Inge sat there, apparently, and asked me if I was okay. No Inge. I am not okay. You just backstabbed me because of a couple of days where I was feeling like CRAP. You ain't saint Inge yourself, you've been mad at me over NOTHING, thrown stuff after me, etc. I want a new job. In BioCity, but they don't need new people till Christmas, so I am keeping my Sunset job till then. Fuck. I could go on about this in hours, but I've discussed it with myself. So I am pretty much through it.
On another note, I've got the day off today. So I am gonna make myself some pasta and watch Shrek 2. Borrowed it from my cousin.
Ilnami and Yoshito has blocked me over AIM. Haven't seen them on for weeks. I thought it would make me sad, but I've been sad ever since me and Ilnami broke up. And since I said to him: "Fine... Fine! Go fuck with some cheap slut, for all that I care!" It hit him harder than I thought, he refused to talk with me. And when he finally did, well. That was our last convo. I wish I would have told him how much I cared. And still care.
Nothing left to say. I feel like Scott do, but I know I am the one to blame. I oush people away. I am rarely online anymore, and I am thinking of quitting the net interely, because I've been feeling so good lately, and people don't wanna talk with me anyway.
So.
Love, Lei