Righteous Indignation
e-mail sent to Patrick 12/29/06 preceded by several others. For a complete listing, contact Melissa at salival.melissa@gmail.com
I was talking about AIM friends list. Let me address your points: 1. Fuck my insecurities? Then fuck yours just the same because you've got them too; everyone has them. 2. I did face the fact that you helped me out, even thanked you for it last night. I didn't ask for it, I didn't want it, and the only thing it helped was me getting it off my chest. We were talking, btw, through text. Which is as far as I want contact with you right now. I'm safe when I'm not on the phone with you or in your presence. So if you wanted to talk then please explain to me what the fuck we WERE doing... 3. If I sound like Ryan then maybe you should listen. He's a pretty logical guy. As for collective personalities...no more so than you. This group I am very happy to be a part of is not poisonous to any but those that cause us harm. And as far as I see it, that's righteous and well-deserved. 4. I did care about you, I did love you, hell for a time I was IN love with you. Funny how getting choked against the side of a refrigerator will damage that kind of emotion. 5. I am self-centered. And well earned too. I spent two years of my life not able to do the things I wanted because I was with you. I'll be damned if I ever do that shit again. You don't come first on my list, or anyone else's so far as I know. 6. How am I not being an adult when I very politely and simply say "I don't want to talk to you right now" (even though we were talking in text)? And how is it not mature of me to tell you "I don't feel comfortable speaking with you vocally or in person"? I thought that was the epitome of being mature. Honest, even. 7. The less you say about Matt, the better. You don't know him. 8. You talking about my mood changing is hypocritical of you. I'd go so far as to say it's the pot calling the kettle black. 9. I do care about having fun right now patrick. I'm entitled to it. See also #5. 10. I have made up my mind about a great many things. I mean, I did end this relationship (through any and all means available to me, no matter the consequences). 11. Fuck you too. Have a good night.
I was talking about AIM friends list. Let me address your points: 1. Fuck my insecurities? Then fuck yours just the same because you've got them too; everyone has them. 2. I did face the fact that you helped me out, even thanked you for it last night. I didn't ask for it, I didn't want it, and the only thing it helped was me getting it off my chest. We were talking, btw, through text. Which is as far as I want contact with you right now. I'm safe when I'm not on the phone with you or in your presence. So if you wanted to talk then please explain to me what the fuck we WERE doing... 3. If I sound like Ryan then maybe you should listen. He's a pretty logical guy. As for collective personalities...no more so than you. This group I am very happy to be a part of is not poisonous to any but those that cause us harm. And as far as I see it, that's righteous and well-deserved. 4. I did care about you, I did love you, hell for a time I was IN love with you. Funny how getting choked against the side of a refrigerator will damage that kind of emotion. 5. I am self-centered. And well earned too. I spent two years of my life not able to do the things I wanted because I was with you. I'll be damned if I ever do that shit again. You don't come first on my list, or anyone else's so far as I know. 6. How am I not being an adult when I very politely and simply say "I don't want to talk to you right now" (even though we were talking in text)? And how is it not mature of me to tell you "I don't feel comfortable speaking with you vocally or in person"? I thought that was the epitome of being mature. Honest, even. 7. The less you say about Matt, the better. You don't know him. 8. You talking about my mood changing is hypocritical of you. I'd go so far as to say it's the pot calling the kettle black. 9. I do care about having fun right now patrick. I'm entitled to it. See also #5. 10. I have made up my mind about a great many things. I mean, I did end this relationship (through any and all means available to me, no matter the consequences). 11. Fuck you too. Have a good night.