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im not feeling well at this moment...im just really sad...its a combination of things...but its one of the downs that i expected..not that im all whoa is me or anything....but im just...i dunno...its slowly starting to sink in that i really dont have that father figure anymore....my number one hero has passed away...and there's nothing i can do about it...i havent cried that much about it....because it hasnt hit me fully...it comes in small strides more then anything...which im greatful for...
i just feel like with that one loss so much has to be rewired in my life again...i cant go to him when i have a problem anymore....it would be awesome if i could just lean on someone else..but i cant...and i wont...because the more i do on my own...the more me i find...it would be great if i could just sleep soundly.
if ive pushed you away...been bitchy...done something to make you think less of me...then im sorry...because i need all the friend's love i can get right now...and im willing to forget anything if you are....it just seems petty when theres so much other stuff going on...
<3Nessa
i just feel like with that one loss so much has to be rewired in my life again...i cant go to him when i have a problem anymore....it would be awesome if i could just lean on someone else..but i cant...and i wont...because the more i do on my own...the more me i find...it would be great if i could just sleep soundly.
if ive pushed you away...been bitchy...done something to make you think less of me...then im sorry...because i need all the friend's love i can get right now...and im willing to forget anything if you are....it just seems petty when theres so much other stuff going on...
<3Nessa