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SO; yesterday i was sleeping like most people do at 8 in the morning, like most people do. and my phone rings... look over at the caller i.d and it was scotty. i was like wow wtf. so i answered and talked to him for about 45 mins maybe? he was askin me how i was doin, and he was worried cuz he hadn't heard from me in awhile. he was really nice. and i told him about brent. he was cool about it. i asked him if he missed me, and he said that if he didn't miss me he wouldn't have called me. SO; we were talkin. and he was askin me if i would burn some c.d's for him and all this. so i said yeah. and then he asked if i would cut his hair today. lol. i was sorda happy he wanted to hang out, i obviously said yeah. but i went back to sleep and called him around 12:30 and woke him up. then he came and got me...
we went to subway, tops, and some car shop, and then to his house. it was nice. he asked me to lay down with him, we cuddled and *stuff*. he said he really really wants to be friends and stuff. so that was cool. he was fine wit the whole brent thing. and he said that if me and him are meant to be, we will be. he even said that we should go to the fair together soon =] yay. so he brought me home cuz him and steve were hanging out.
i guess he's not with rabecca or michelle. i asked him if he was still as crazy as he was about rabecca now as he was when they first started talkin. and he said no. that sorda made me happy, but who knows if it's the truth?
on the way taking me home, i told him i loved him. and he said it back. and i told him that i will always love him, and he said that back too. it was sorda the closure that i needed and stuff. it felt good to talk to him and stuff.
SO... i come home, and just relax. then took a nap around 7:30. woke up around 9:30 went online, and brent asked if i could hang out.. so i went up there till about midnight. we didn't do much, jus chilled... and then i came home and got online and talked to him.....
illest x ladii x: OH WOW u actually did get on
Brntski31: yea i had to get my sister off
illest x ladii x: aw u didnt have to do that
illest x ladii x: i was just messin with ya
Brntski31: well she was goin to bed
illest x ladii x: ooh ok
illest x ladii x: so whats up pal
Brntski31: nothin
illest x ladii x: tired?
Brntski31: a lil
Brntski31: u were just here u know there is nothin to do
illest x ladii x: well yuo and me found something to do ;-)
illest x ladii x: lol
Brntski31: hehe
illest x ladii x: lol
Brntski31: so what r u doin
illest x ladii x: ohh nothing
illest x ladii x: just sitting here.
Brntski31: yea i know what u mean
illest x ladii x: whats on ur mind
Brntski31: sleep
Brntski31: whats on your mind
illest x ladii x: eh nothing really
Brntski31: nothin really
Brntski31: what does that mean
Brntski31: what r u really thinkin about
illest x ladii x: idk i think u just wanna be friends.
illest x ladii x: ..
Brntski31: y would u think that
illest x ladii x: idk. i can read people pretty good sometimes, and it just seems like that
illest x ladii x: i mean, if that's what you want, just to be friends, then that's fine. we can still chill and stuff.
Brntski31: i think u feel it too thats y it is easy for u to say i do
Brntski31: so i think we both do
illest x ladii x: we both what?
Brntski31: which is fine with me
Brntski31: just want to be friends
illest x ladii x: well is that what you want
Brntski31: well is that what u want idk what i want i know it is hard for me cuz i have so much goin on right now so it would proboly be better if we were friends and it would benifit u that we just be friends cuz then u wont get hurt in the long run but like u said we can still chill and shit im cool with that
illest x ladii x: yeah
Brntski31: everything happens for a reason
illest x ladii x: true
Brntski31: so now what r u thinkin
illest x ladii x: nothing
illest x ladii x: im glad we didn't have sex..
Brntski31: yea i know thats what i was thinkin and thats why i said everything happens for a reason
illest x ladii x: i sorda figured u would do that but whatever
Brntski31: that i would do what
illest x ladii x: just wanna be friends.
Brntski31: so r u mad and dont lie
illest x ladii x: yeah. i am. i mean, it's obvious it wouldn't have worked, but i dont know y u gotta use all that sweet talk if it's not how u feel
Brntski31: i knew u were goin to say that
illest x ladii x: well it's true
illest x ladii x: i mean i just ended like everything me and scotty had cuz i had hopes for us. that sucks
illest x ladii x: ...
Brntski31: ... i dont know what to say but im sorry i dont know i am not good for u anyways as we can see right now
illest x ladii x: yeah
illest x ladii x: ur right
Brntski31: i think im better off without girls
illest x ladii x: eh that's ur choice
illest x ladii x: if ur goin to be like that, then yah i would say the same thing
Brntski31: yea they always alter my ways of thinkin
Brntski31: i need to just focus on doin good in school this year and doin awesome in sports and get a scholership to a good school
illest x ladii x: yah
illest x ladii x: wow i feel so stupid
Brntski31: honestly i was thinkin about no girls
Brntski31: u shouldnt feel stupid
illest x ladii x: no i do. i was actually thinking you meant what you said
Brntski31: ur feelins shouldnt change
Brntski31: just blame it on me so u have nothin to worry about it wasnt your fault it was all my fault u have nothin to feel bad about
illest x ladii x: yah
Brntski31: it is my bad im the one who messed it up
illest x ladii x: yeah
Brntski31: so is it cleared up now
illest x ladii x: sure
illest x ladii x: if thats what you wanna call it
Brntski31: i guess
illest x ladii x: suuuuuuurre
illest x ladii x: whatever ya went
Brntski31: nothins changed its still all good
illest x ladii x: well i don't like you anymore, thats changed. lol
Brntski31: thats good tho u shouldnt
Brntski31: that makes me feel a lil better
illest x ladii x: yeah
illest x ladii x: whatever makes you feel better
Brntski31: i think im goin to get some more sleep and go to bed now is that alright with u
illest x ladii x: yeah i could care less
Brntski31: okay just makin sure u didnt care
illest x ladii x: nope.
illest x ladii x: not at all
Brntski31: goodnight kathleen i will talk to u tommrow
illest x ladii x: yup
Brntski31 signed off at 1:15:07 AM.
and that is how our conversation went. i was really crushed. i think it was sorda embaracing. i really thought he wasn't the player he used to be. but i guess i was wrong? i think it hurt more just because scotty asked me yesterday if i liked brent a lot, and i said yeah. and then a few hours later, we have nothing. oh well.. it's not like i loved the kid, like at all. heh. who knows though. i guess it's sorda for the best. things would have been weird i'm guessing? lol..
well today .. i wanna hang out with scotty but he's sleeping. i need to get out and do something. maybe even hang out with robin toight, not too sure? leave me comments...
[sorry this entry sucksssss]
we went to subway, tops, and some car shop, and then to his house. it was nice. he asked me to lay down with him, we cuddled and *stuff*. he said he really really wants to be friends and stuff. so that was cool. he was fine wit the whole brent thing. and he said that if me and him are meant to be, we will be. he even said that we should go to the fair together soon =] yay. so he brought me home cuz him and steve were hanging out.
i guess he's not with rabecca or michelle. i asked him if he was still as crazy as he was about rabecca now as he was when they first started talkin. and he said no. that sorda made me happy, but who knows if it's the truth?
on the way taking me home, i told him i loved him. and he said it back. and i told him that i will always love him, and he said that back too. it was sorda the closure that i needed and stuff. it felt good to talk to him and stuff.
SO... i come home, and just relax. then took a nap around 7:30. woke up around 9:30 went online, and brent asked if i could hang out.. so i went up there till about midnight. we didn't do much, jus chilled... and then i came home and got online and talked to him.....
illest x ladii x: OH WOW u actually did get on
Brntski31: yea i had to get my sister off
illest x ladii x: aw u didnt have to do that
illest x ladii x: i was just messin with ya
Brntski31: well she was goin to bed
illest x ladii x: ooh ok
illest x ladii x: so whats up pal
Brntski31: nothin
illest x ladii x: tired?
Brntski31: a lil
Brntski31: u were just here u know there is nothin to do
illest x ladii x: well yuo and me found something to do ;-)
illest x ladii x: lol
Brntski31: hehe
illest x ladii x: lol
Brntski31: so what r u doin
illest x ladii x: ohh nothing
illest x ladii x: just sitting here.
Brntski31: yea i know what u mean
illest x ladii x: whats on ur mind
Brntski31: sleep
Brntski31: whats on your mind
illest x ladii x: eh nothing really
Brntski31: nothin really
Brntski31: what does that mean
Brntski31: what r u really thinkin about
illest x ladii x: idk i think u just wanna be friends.
illest x ladii x: ..
Brntski31: y would u think that
illest x ladii x: idk. i can read people pretty good sometimes, and it just seems like that
illest x ladii x: i mean, if that's what you want, just to be friends, then that's fine. we can still chill and stuff.
Brntski31: i think u feel it too thats y it is easy for u to say i do
Brntski31: so i think we both do
illest x ladii x: we both what?
Brntski31: which is fine with me
Brntski31: just want to be friends
illest x ladii x: well is that what you want
Brntski31: well is that what u want idk what i want i know it is hard for me cuz i have so much goin on right now so it would proboly be better if we were friends and it would benifit u that we just be friends cuz then u wont get hurt in the long run but like u said we can still chill and shit im cool with that
illest x ladii x: yeah
Brntski31: everything happens for a reason
illest x ladii x: true
Brntski31: so now what r u thinkin
illest x ladii x: nothing
illest x ladii x: im glad we didn't have sex..
Brntski31: yea i know thats what i was thinkin and thats why i said everything happens for a reason
illest x ladii x: i sorda figured u would do that but whatever
Brntski31: that i would do what
illest x ladii x: just wanna be friends.
Brntski31: so r u mad and dont lie
illest x ladii x: yeah. i am. i mean, it's obvious it wouldn't have worked, but i dont know y u gotta use all that sweet talk if it's not how u feel
Brntski31: i knew u were goin to say that
illest x ladii x: well it's true
illest x ladii x: i mean i just ended like everything me and scotty had cuz i had hopes for us. that sucks
illest x ladii x: ...
Brntski31: ... i dont know what to say but im sorry i dont know i am not good for u anyways as we can see right now
illest x ladii x: yeah
illest x ladii x: ur right
Brntski31: i think im better off without girls
illest x ladii x: eh that's ur choice
illest x ladii x: if ur goin to be like that, then yah i would say the same thing
Brntski31: yea they always alter my ways of thinkin
Brntski31: i need to just focus on doin good in school this year and doin awesome in sports and get a scholership to a good school
illest x ladii x: yah
illest x ladii x: wow i feel so stupid
Brntski31: honestly i was thinkin about no girls
Brntski31: u shouldnt feel stupid
illest x ladii x: no i do. i was actually thinking you meant what you said
Brntski31: ur feelins shouldnt change
Brntski31: just blame it on me so u have nothin to worry about it wasnt your fault it was all my fault u have nothin to feel bad about
illest x ladii x: yah
Brntski31: it is my bad im the one who messed it up
illest x ladii x: yeah
Brntski31: so is it cleared up now
illest x ladii x: sure
illest x ladii x: if thats what you wanna call it
Brntski31: i guess
illest x ladii x: suuuuuuurre
illest x ladii x: whatever ya went
Brntski31: nothins changed its still all good
illest x ladii x: well i don't like you anymore, thats changed. lol
Brntski31: thats good tho u shouldnt
Brntski31: that makes me feel a lil better
illest x ladii x: yeah
illest x ladii x: whatever makes you feel better
Brntski31: i think im goin to get some more sleep and go to bed now is that alright with u
illest x ladii x: yeah i could care less
Brntski31: okay just makin sure u didnt care
illest x ladii x: nope.
illest x ladii x: not at all
Brntski31: goodnight kathleen i will talk to u tommrow
illest x ladii x: yup
Brntski31 signed off at 1:15:07 AM.
and that is how our conversation went. i was really crushed. i think it was sorda embaracing. i really thought he wasn't the player he used to be. but i guess i was wrong? i think it hurt more just because scotty asked me yesterday if i liked brent a lot, and i said yeah. and then a few hours later, we have nothing. oh well.. it's not like i loved the kid, like at all. heh. who knows though. i guess it's sorda for the best. things would have been weird i'm guessing? lol..
well today .. i wanna hang out with scotty but he's sleeping. i need to get out and do something. maybe even hang out with robin toight, not too sure? leave me comments...
[sorry this entry sucksssss]