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I still love/hate Garett schaefer, I'm moving in with my relatives, I don't care about my weight, or drugs, or studying, or living. I have no default emotion. I know this will pass, it always does, its just a question of when. Depression is a bitch. It ruins my ultimate plateaus and lies in bed with me, sits on my neck while I drag my nasty body out of bed to pee or get water, my neck hurts from it sitting on my shoulders. No matter how much tiger balm I put on it it doesn't heal. My heart also is affected by the way this kid depression squeezes it. I'm filling myself up with poison everyday.
spent everything I had. wanted it to stop so bad.
spent everything I had. wanted it to stop so bad.