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Things I have been doing to balance the ratio of pleasure to unhappiness that is currently heavier on the sad (I told you there is this large man who finds a comfortable seat on my heart from time to time):
+eating pumpkin pie
+walking through the Design Center in the night when it is closed and abandoned and there is an interspersed glow of lamps in the shop windows
+reading Hemingway to make up for not feeling certain sensations
+humming while walking through surrounding neighborhoods, always in the night, so no one can see me talking to myself
+wishing I could make everyone's troubles go away during the holidays; believing in the idea completely for small electric bursts of time
+eating vegetables, namely sliced black olives
+forgiving frequently and crying about it
+eating pumpkin pie
+walking through the Design Center in the night when it is closed and abandoned and there is an interspersed glow of lamps in the shop windows
+reading Hemingway to make up for not feeling certain sensations
+humming while walking through surrounding neighborhoods, always in the night, so no one can see me talking to myself
+wishing I could make everyone's troubles go away during the holidays; believing in the idea completely for small electric bursts of time
+eating vegetables, namely sliced black olives
+forgiving frequently and crying about it