sigh...
been home for a day now and definatley already very unhappy to be here.
im leaving for vacation tomorrow at 630am. the carribean will be a nice break from the madess that has been my life lately, however, im not sure how its going to go family wise. my mother is being her normal akward weird self, only this time shes not drunk. michael has stopped drinking since the last vacation falling out shit that i had to deal with, but all in all it just makes life harder here for me cuz i cant be sauced all the time off their free booze.
i miss my friends so much already. being able to hang out with my "family" at school so much lately has really taken my mind off other things. i enjoy also having the boys around more... its nice to have boy friends that arent my boyfriends... ya know? yeah... well... its a nice breath of fresh air for me.
i went on MORE. it was nice... i find that the best is truely yet to come. when i was there i was unsure of it, however when i listen to the music, and im with my friends that ive made there, and i dont know... when you take it all in it really makes you feel so much better.
i went shopping today. got a lot of stuff for spring and my trip. only problem i had is finding skirts. i pretty much just want to shoot myself cuz i get really fucking discouraged when im trying to find clothes that fit over my huge fucking ass and my huge fucking legs. fuck. fuck. fuck. yeah.. thats right.
i went to an amazing photography exhibit the other night with dad, candace, and micah. truely inspiring photographs. going to shows like that make me want to work that much harder so that one day i too can have shows and be talented as those people are.
..... reguarding the word photographer: i was thinking today how funny it was that there is no feminine/masculine difference and that a person, no matter what their gender is still a photographer. stellar....
anywho, got some books to read on vaca... should be good... got one called something like ' why the prochoice movement saved our lives ' it looks really good.... its something that i think will should read, but i think thats just me being stubborn about his pro life opinion. that... is something that i will just have to learn to ignore... but for now... it still makes me sad. good kid none the less.
welp, gattah pack. holla. back in a week.
im leaving for vacation tomorrow at 630am. the carribean will be a nice break from the madess that has been my life lately, however, im not sure how its going to go family wise. my mother is being her normal akward weird self, only this time shes not drunk. michael has stopped drinking since the last vacation falling out shit that i had to deal with, but all in all it just makes life harder here for me cuz i cant be sauced all the time off their free booze.
i miss my friends so much already. being able to hang out with my "family" at school so much lately has really taken my mind off other things. i enjoy also having the boys around more... its nice to have boy friends that arent my boyfriends... ya know? yeah... well... its a nice breath of fresh air for me.
i went on MORE. it was nice... i find that the best is truely yet to come. when i was there i was unsure of it, however when i listen to the music, and im with my friends that ive made there, and i dont know... when you take it all in it really makes you feel so much better.
i went shopping today. got a lot of stuff for spring and my trip. only problem i had is finding skirts. i pretty much just want to shoot myself cuz i get really fucking discouraged when im trying to find clothes that fit over my huge fucking ass and my huge fucking legs. fuck. fuck. fuck. yeah.. thats right.
i went to an amazing photography exhibit the other night with dad, candace, and micah. truely inspiring photographs. going to shows like that make me want to work that much harder so that one day i too can have shows and be talented as those people are.
..... reguarding the word photographer: i was thinking today how funny it was that there is no feminine/masculine difference and that a person, no matter what their gender is still a photographer. stellar....
anywho, got some books to read on vaca... should be good... got one called something like ' why the prochoice movement saved our lives ' it looks really good.... its something that i think will should read, but i think thats just me being stubborn about his pro life opinion. that... is something that i will just have to learn to ignore... but for now... it still makes me sad. good kid none the less.
welp, gattah pack. holla. back in a week.