fuck me. please me.
things have been so incredibly good, and so terrible all at the same time that it is kind of hard to take in.
second semester started off rough.
my class schedule is very difficult this semester.
takes up a lot of my time... energy... and life.
glen didnt like that.
glen made some irrational decisions that kind of changed things a little.
ill spare the details...
it was rough... and it wasnt cool... and i think i cried for like two weeks.
so after the tears i decided that i would just take a lot of emotion numbing drugs and not feel.
then after some great weekends of getting shit tanked and having some nights that i dont remember with friends that ill never forget and all that jazzz my family decides were all going to be a drunken mess and my step father decides to fuck up stuff with my mother while theyre in florida.
now... i pretty much just drink and cry and hate almost everything, but love everything as well. i have so much to be happy about, but i have so much that i hurt about, and that sucks a fucking lot.
i got another piercing in my ear...
im dying my hair...
when lara ended it with me i cut all my hair off...
remember that time that sarah did impulsive things when she hurts?
keep it going... and ill keep it coming.
glen has decided tonight that i can fuck off... and that he is going to stop talking to me. he decided to pull this freak shit and come over drunk and uninvited on friday night because of "love" and then get mad when i asked him to leave. this happened to be at the same time that i was trying to deal with my family situation that i dont intend on going into here. things were really messed up and he seems to seriously lack the understanding of what "dont come over" means. so... i guess... because glen want to hurt everything that he touches we arent going to be friends anymore.
"there is nothing in it for me" -glen
right now i am sitting here with dye in my hair watching old school with ck1 and kk. i am contemplating life... and wondering... well whats in it for me? no... im kidding, i think. "RED CROSS! AGAIN! AGAIN" says court then "HHHERRREEES TO SISTER KARA SISTER KARA SISTER KARA!" i think for now... thats enough for me to get out of life. oh how i love my friends
SXjesUSfreAk: go away
SXjesUSfreAk: its like the vast song
SXjesUSfreAk: when i treat you badly, it makes you want to stay. but when i treated you like an angel... you were nowhere to be found
SXjesUSfreAk: go away sarah
second semester started off rough.
my class schedule is very difficult this semester.
takes up a lot of my time... energy... and life.
glen didnt like that.
glen made some irrational decisions that kind of changed things a little.
ill spare the details...
it was rough... and it wasnt cool... and i think i cried for like two weeks.
so after the tears i decided that i would just take a lot of emotion numbing drugs and not feel.
then after some great weekends of getting shit tanked and having some nights that i dont remember with friends that ill never forget and all that jazzz my family decides were all going to be a drunken mess and my step father decides to fuck up stuff with my mother while theyre in florida.
now... i pretty much just drink and cry and hate almost everything, but love everything as well. i have so much to be happy about, but i have so much that i hurt about, and that sucks a fucking lot.
i got another piercing in my ear...
im dying my hair...
when lara ended it with me i cut all my hair off...
remember that time that sarah did impulsive things when she hurts?
keep it going... and ill keep it coming.
glen has decided tonight that i can fuck off... and that he is going to stop talking to me. he decided to pull this freak shit and come over drunk and uninvited on friday night because of "love" and then get mad when i asked him to leave. this happened to be at the same time that i was trying to deal with my family situation that i dont intend on going into here. things were really messed up and he seems to seriously lack the understanding of what "dont come over" means. so... i guess... because glen want to hurt everything that he touches we arent going to be friends anymore.
"there is nothing in it for me" -glen
right now i am sitting here with dye in my hair watching old school with ck1 and kk. i am contemplating life... and wondering... well whats in it for me? no... im kidding, i think. "RED CROSS! AGAIN! AGAIN" says court then "HHHERRREEES TO SISTER KARA SISTER KARA SISTER KARA!" i think for now... thats enough for me to get out of life. oh how i love my friends
SXjesUSfreAk: go away
SXjesUSfreAk: its like the vast song
SXjesUSfreAk: when i treat you badly, it makes you want to stay. but when i treated you like an angel... you were nowhere to be found
SXjesUSfreAk: go away sarah