today

[ill_burn_you]

today i already posted

today i got up late... and got dressed

today mom asked me to go to lunch... so i didnt eat here.

i had a vodka grapefruit instead.

today i went to rowayton and didnt eat lunch... i dont know why we didnt go... we had wine i guess

we had 3 or 4 glasses... then i was on my way

still had nothing to eat

when i got home i had a wrap with smartdogs cuz i think that dispite how upset i had i should eat

i drink i drink

i watch hulu

i wait for someone to ask me to do something

its laras like, only night with paul, so i dont want to fuck that up

i wait i wait and now im out of mixers.

i suck.

im out

edit: tomorrow is june first.
i am on lockdown.
it is the most miserable day of my life

i hate myself.