(no subject)
In weston.
Drive back was good.
18 hours. singing. lipstick. absurd.
Was home here and there visiting with people
Bounced to boston
saw scott, kara, jess, picco, tommy, greta, tobes, dave, heather, michelle, her friend from home, chris atkonson, shopped, tramped around
dave offered me everything
be my girlfriend again he says
be veg
see you friends
go to concerts
do what you need to be happy
see me every once and a while
i just need you in my life and dont want to live without you...
i said no, he said to me i cant give you much but two things i can promise you.
1. i will be the best bf i can
2. i will show you every day how much i love you
sigh.... i cried and said goodbye.
part of me really still wants to be with him. honestly no one understands us but us. love to hate, and love, and hate... but we are good together, its just hard because we spent all this time in florida when it was terrible for him.... and now when i see him again he is that boy that i fell in love with in the first place.
i dont know... im very confused.
also, feeling rather depressed lately.
also, such a lightweight now and i dont know why.
looking for jobs and trying to be patient but honestly i just need something, yes... i do want to be happy where i end up but i dont know how long i can last like this.
i know myself heather dave kris and lara all learned the hard way to not take jobs that youre going to be happy at but i just dont know... i know nothing
beth cheated on kris. dumb slut. i told him last night i dont know why he is always getting fucked.... like.. he seems like an awesome bf.... and hes always getting hurt.
going to be busy for the next few weekends. going to be here and there, mostly at laras for vegan dinner parties lol. going to boston for graduation and oooh and heather will be in town on the 10th. also going to p town with the lesbos for memorial day weekend should be tons of funz!
okay,i need to get out of this bed and do something... ive literally been here all day.
meeting micah for a movie tonight.
pze
oh and here i am all day... with my stolen hoodie in my bed.
ps yes lara i did my own hair in the other pic :)
Drive back was good.
18 hours. singing. lipstick. absurd.
Was home here and there visiting with people
Bounced to boston
saw scott, kara, jess, picco, tommy, greta, tobes, dave, heather, michelle, her friend from home, chris atkonson, shopped, tramped around
dave offered me everything
be my girlfriend again he says
be veg
see you friends
go to concerts
do what you need to be happy
see me every once and a while
i just need you in my life and dont want to live without you...
i said no, he said to me i cant give you much but two things i can promise you.
1. i will be the best bf i can
2. i will show you every day how much i love you
sigh.... i cried and said goodbye.
part of me really still wants to be with him. honestly no one understands us but us. love to hate, and love, and hate... but we are good together, its just hard because we spent all this time in florida when it was terrible for him.... and now when i see him again he is that boy that i fell in love with in the first place.
i dont know... im very confused.
also, feeling rather depressed lately.
also, such a lightweight now and i dont know why.
looking for jobs and trying to be patient but honestly i just need something, yes... i do want to be happy where i end up but i dont know how long i can last like this.
i know myself heather dave kris and lara all learned the hard way to not take jobs that youre going to be happy at but i just dont know... i know nothing
beth cheated on kris. dumb slut. i told him last night i dont know why he is always getting fucked.... like.. he seems like an awesome bf.... and hes always getting hurt.
going to be busy for the next few weekends. going to be here and there, mostly at laras for vegan dinner parties lol. going to boston for graduation and oooh and heather will be in town on the 10th. also going to p town with the lesbos for memorial day weekend should be tons of funz!
okay,i need to get out of this bed and do something... ive literally been here all day.
meeting micah for a movie tonight.
pze
oh and here i am all day... with my stolen hoodie in my bed.
ps yes lara i did my own hair in the other pic :)