Finally taking a hint...
Holy crap! I'm updating once again. Weird isnt it? I guess im somewhat inspired by the fact some weirdo I know got on AIM for the first time in forever. So I decided, I should finally update as well. Especially after that last entry. Umm, yeah.
Things have been getting better since that was written. Counseling is an amazing thing to undergoe. It has seriously been helping me stay calmer and more rational. And My counselor is pretty nice, and she has helped me realize some things about myself that I am starting to reverse slowly. Group therapy is an interesting thing as well, but I kind of like individual sessions better. My counselor and I are trying to work on getting me to speak whatever I feel, and learn to bring up even purely random topics. Just trying get me to talk without feeling any kind of regrets or fear.
Had a pretty good weekend this past weekend. The weekend before was alright, but not as fun as this past one. It started out on Friday by getting stood up for playing pool with a person from my dorm, which really ticked me off. So I ended up shooting a few games by myself to practice making shots. Which didnt go so well because of feeling annoyed. At least it was free. Saturday was a long day of sleeping, some practicing, and a student recital given by one of the other people in the cello studio. Now she doesnt have lessons since it was her senior recital. Lucky her. Afterwards, I spent the rest of the night with some girls I went to the recital with, and also with one of the girl's roommate. Took a lot of guts to ask to tag along, since I have a somewhat justifiable fear of accidentally imposing myself. (I even surprised my counselor when I told her about it.) Very nice girls they were, a little insane together but it kept things lively. I had a wonderful time. We went to Luigi's Pizza downtown, which has pretty decent pizza, and saw the Jazz combo playing there. I love great instrumental jazz. Im not a big fan of vocal, but any good improvised instrumental is amazing to hear. Afterwards, just went and chilled in my dorm, and finally got a good amount of sleep. Except I kept sleeping in that I missed church in the morning, but oh well. Nothing wrong with that.
Im still recovering from burning myself out from the past week. I practiced a shitload more than usual, often not getting into the dorm until 2 starting last thursday to tuesday. It was all being done since we had another "String Preparedness" rehearsal in symphony, which I still suck at. SO now I have ot play a certain passage for Dr. McCashin the monday before thansgiving to get some points back for my overall grade. Speaking of grades, I got yet another 100 on the most recent Ear Training Quiz. BUt now we've been starting slightly harder things. So maybe the next grade I'll only get a 98. What a terrible way to ruin my perfect score in that class. At least it's still pretty easy. Ugh, I need to finally do some written theory homework and get to bed. Yet another day tomorrow. I have a cello lesson tomorrow after symphony, which sucks hardcore because I've lost a day to practice beforehand. At least I'll be warmed up for once. But I'll be tired as shit. And I gotta try to make a trip to the bank between 115 and 315, which really isnt much time since the bus is slow. I wish there was an ATM of MY bank one campus, not just the ones for the on campus student credit union. It's bullshitake mushrooms to ahve to pay a 3 dollar charge each time I need to get cash. THat money could go towards quarters!
Maybe the next time I update, it will be before or after Thanksgiving. I don't know which and I dont really care. And I think I have about 6 more before I reach the gruesome number of 100 saved entries. I think there used to be a few more, but I definitely deleted those. Goodnight y'all!
P.S- Never EVAR eat shrimp ramen and accidentally go to bed without brushing your teeth. Worst morning breath possible. I almost choked when I first tasted it.
P.P.S- Woot! So now I have finally sent off two of 5 written letters. I had to throw the other 3 away, because one didnt sound right at all, and the other two were going to be little good luck notes for two people before the first symphony concert, but I forgot to bring them with me that night. I felt incredibly 'tarded. Oh well. Maybe I'll learn to be slightly more responsibible.
Things have been getting better since that was written. Counseling is an amazing thing to undergoe. It has seriously been helping me stay calmer and more rational. And My counselor is pretty nice, and she has helped me realize some things about myself that I am starting to reverse slowly. Group therapy is an interesting thing as well, but I kind of like individual sessions better. My counselor and I are trying to work on getting me to speak whatever I feel, and learn to bring up even purely random topics. Just trying get me to talk without feeling any kind of regrets or fear.
Had a pretty good weekend this past weekend. The weekend before was alright, but not as fun as this past one. It started out on Friday by getting stood up for playing pool with a person from my dorm, which really ticked me off. So I ended up shooting a few games by myself to practice making shots. Which didnt go so well because of feeling annoyed. At least it was free. Saturday was a long day of sleeping, some practicing, and a student recital given by one of the other people in the cello studio. Now she doesnt have lessons since it was her senior recital. Lucky her. Afterwards, I spent the rest of the night with some girls I went to the recital with, and also with one of the girl's roommate. Took a lot of guts to ask to tag along, since I have a somewhat justifiable fear of accidentally imposing myself. (I even surprised my counselor when I told her about it.) Very nice girls they were, a little insane together but it kept things lively. I had a wonderful time. We went to Luigi's Pizza downtown, which has pretty decent pizza, and saw the Jazz combo playing there. I love great instrumental jazz. Im not a big fan of vocal, but any good improvised instrumental is amazing to hear. Afterwards, just went and chilled in my dorm, and finally got a good amount of sleep. Except I kept sleeping in that I missed church in the morning, but oh well. Nothing wrong with that.
Im still recovering from burning myself out from the past week. I practiced a shitload more than usual, often not getting into the dorm until 2 starting last thursday to tuesday. It was all being done since we had another "String Preparedness" rehearsal in symphony, which I still suck at. SO now I have ot play a certain passage for Dr. McCashin the monday before thansgiving to get some points back for my overall grade. Speaking of grades, I got yet another 100 on the most recent Ear Training Quiz. BUt now we've been starting slightly harder things. So maybe the next grade I'll only get a 98. What a terrible way to ruin my perfect score in that class. At least it's still pretty easy. Ugh, I need to finally do some written theory homework and get to bed. Yet another day tomorrow. I have a cello lesson tomorrow after symphony, which sucks hardcore because I've lost a day to practice beforehand. At least I'll be warmed up for once. But I'll be tired as shit. And I gotta try to make a trip to the bank between 115 and 315, which really isnt much time since the bus is slow. I wish there was an ATM of MY bank one campus, not just the ones for the on campus student credit union. It's bullshitake mushrooms to ahve to pay a 3 dollar charge each time I need to get cash. THat money could go towards quarters!
Maybe the next time I update, it will be before or after Thanksgiving. I don't know which and I dont really care. And I think I have about 6 more before I reach the gruesome number of 100 saved entries. I think there used to be a few more, but I definitely deleted those. Goodnight y'all!
P.S- Never EVAR eat shrimp ramen and accidentally go to bed without brushing your teeth. Worst morning breath possible. I almost choked when I first tasted it.
P.P.S- Woot! So now I have finally sent off two of 5 written letters. I had to throw the other 3 away, because one didnt sound right at all, and the other two were going to be little good luck notes for two people before the first symphony concert, but I forgot to bring them with me that night. I felt incredibly 'tarded. Oh well. Maybe I'll learn to be slightly more responsibible.