self motivation...
I hate myself, i hate the person i have become... I am self centered, and i don't care for others... I dont know how to love, or feel for that matter. because of you i am lost with an emptiness forever in my heart, weighing heavier everyday.. You made a bad choice, but did you ever think what you might have done to me? not only my selfish being, but your son, the one that looks up to a father the most. I told you I hated you, and through the tears that was the only thing you heard tonight. I couldn't imagine the guilt I wish upon you. but tonight i heard it, i heard you, i felt it, and i still couldn't get through to you. To many things were left unsaid, and my feelings are still hurt. but my emtions are empty, i can't feel anything, and i have never felt so dumb in my life.. Damn you! I wish i could put a face to the voice, cause thats all you are, and all you have ever been to me for 7 years... I cant keep putting myself through this while you sit back and watch me suffer, to only hear what I say, but you would never know...