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Rachel and I went out to dinner a couple of nights ago and we were talking about groups of friends and how much things change. Like our group from high school: Sarah, Lizzie, Emilia, Jennie, Rachel and me. So much drama happened, none of us were at all laid back and we all were way too into causing fights and being catty. We were all guilty of trying to set one another against all the others, trying to cause arguments so that we could be closer to this person... it was pretty bad and pretty immature. Now we're all separate. Lizzie, Rach and I are still super close... and I'm getting much closer to Jennie again. Sarah and Jennie are friends... and Sarah and Rachel are fixing things up. But we'll never be a group again (which I think is a good thing). I miss a lot of that summer at Jennie's apartment were just Rachel, Jennie and I would hang out. The 3 of us were pretty good at getting along together... we had so much fun, swimming in the middle of the night, drinking with Luis, Philip Michael and A.C... it was good times.
Then there's the Davis girls. I miss that group a lot, but I've come to realize that I'll never really be a part of it again. Sure, I'll be friends with them, and we'll hang out... but they're a group now, with their boyfriends and with D and Nicole and stuff... and not living out there, it makes it even harder for me to see them. It's just one of those things where once you're out, it's really hard to get back in. And I miss it a lot. I miss freshman year of college SOO much, oh man, we had such good times freshman year. And even 2nd year, after all the drama with Jorge had subsided, we had some really, really good times. I miss hanging out in the living room... watching Survivor and the Bachelorette... making food together... going grocery shopping together... I miss so much of it. I miss the security of living with those girls and knowing that even when we fought, we'd sort it out and all just be back having fun again. Because it's not like that anymore. That last fight between me and them burned a lot of bridges and I don't think I'll ever be able to just kick it with them the same way. Which makes me really sad... because I really care for all 3 of them. Jenna was one of my best friends for those 2 years... I seriously could talk to her about anything. And Erin could always totally make me laugh and kick my ass at DDR. And Devin, I don't know, but Devin and I were really close by the end of the year and I really miss her. She's a super person.
And the last group that I miss is Andre, Rachel, Aaron and me. Dude, the 4 of us had so much fun together. But at least we all still hang out and are on good terms. It was more with break ups and then new girlfriends and the end of Bob's Child that we all sort of had our falling outs. Well, mostly over Rachel and Andre's breakup... anyway, we're still cool though. Aaron and I call each other all the time... Andre and Rachel are hanging out. We all want to hang out together. Andre's moving in with some other guys that we know and so we'll get to hang out over there... and the best thing is they are all so chilled out all the time, that they'll help balance out Rachel and my high-strung personalities. So, it could be really good... we'll have to see.
I think watching Friends just made me realize that, more than anything, I really miss having the security of a close group of people that know me well. There's nothing like that, it's so nice to have that. I was really lucky to have that before, and I just hope I have it again sometime.
Then there's the Davis girls. I miss that group a lot, but I've come to realize that I'll never really be a part of it again. Sure, I'll be friends with them, and we'll hang out... but they're a group now, with their boyfriends and with D and Nicole and stuff... and not living out there, it makes it even harder for me to see them. It's just one of those things where once you're out, it's really hard to get back in. And I miss it a lot. I miss freshman year of college SOO much, oh man, we had such good times freshman year. And even 2nd year, after all the drama with Jorge had subsided, we had some really, really good times. I miss hanging out in the living room... watching Survivor and the Bachelorette... making food together... going grocery shopping together... I miss so much of it. I miss the security of living with those girls and knowing that even when we fought, we'd sort it out and all just be back having fun again. Because it's not like that anymore. That last fight between me and them burned a lot of bridges and I don't think I'll ever be able to just kick it with them the same way. Which makes me really sad... because I really care for all 3 of them. Jenna was one of my best friends for those 2 years... I seriously could talk to her about anything. And Erin could always totally make me laugh and kick my ass at DDR. And Devin, I don't know, but Devin and I were really close by the end of the year and I really miss her. She's a super person.
And the last group that I miss is Andre, Rachel, Aaron and me. Dude, the 4 of us had so much fun together. But at least we all still hang out and are on good terms. It was more with break ups and then new girlfriends and the end of Bob's Child that we all sort of had our falling outs. Well, mostly over Rachel and Andre's breakup... anyway, we're still cool though. Aaron and I call each other all the time... Andre and Rachel are hanging out. We all want to hang out together. Andre's moving in with some other guys that we know and so we'll get to hang out over there... and the best thing is they are all so chilled out all the time, that they'll help balance out Rachel and my high-strung personalities. So, it could be really good... we'll have to see.
I think watching Friends just made me realize that, more than anything, I really miss having the security of a close group of people that know me well. There's nothing like that, it's so nice to have that. I was really lucky to have that before, and I just hope I have it again sometime.