Another farewell...
Yesterday was quite a sad day. I found out that one of my best mates who also happens to be my bf is leaving the country within the next three weeks for reasons I won't go into. So understandably I am rather upset about the whole thing. Not so much because I'm losing a bf, but because I'm losing a friend who's been a great part of my life for the past year and a bit. It makes me so very, very sad.
I hate it when friends leave for overseas. Seriously. It's just like they are dead. They might as well be, because I don't get to hang out with them, I don't get to ever see them, or speak to them. All that's left are memories. And the internet is the thing that lets you hold seances.
This is worse than when Aimee left, because, for one, we all knew she'd be coming back one day. Plus I had a years notice. This.... this is three weeks notice, MAX! He has to leave before the 28th, so he could technically leave next week. So now we are trying to spend as much time as possible hanging out. I really hated having to meet up with him and I was going to break up with him on the 28th anyway. We'd talked about it in great length. And now he has to break up with me coz he's leaving. Ahahaha, the irony. I was so scared of being stuck in a long term relationship with no way out, well here is my escape. But why do I have to lose a friend, when all I wanted was to get rid of a bf?
This blows..
On the plus side though, I'm scoring his PC off him when he goes. Which is great because Legato... ugh. Maybe it really is time to put him down. My friends also insisting on buying me a load of stuff. His excuse is he 'wants me to be reminded of him wherever I look', lol! He bought me Lego Star Wars The Complete Saga for the PS3, and Dexter Season 1 boxset. He was gonna buy me an Aerith Action Figure but I paid for that myself because I'd feel bad if he seriously bought me everything.
So that's basically that. I'm at a point where I am thinking that I am destined to have shitty relationships for the rest of my life, or that the next bf will be lucky third. I will miss him terribly, and things won't be the same. But life goes on, and yes, there's always the internet.
I Miss You
I was always strong as long as we were a team
I crawled into somebody's heart who meant the world to me
love made me strong enough to be alone and set me free
but with my friends friends to the end is where I wanna be
with my friends friends to the end is where I wanna be
I don't need to
but I want to
sing with you
'cause I miss you
I don't need to
but I want to
sing with you
'cause I miss you
I hate it when friends leave for overseas. Seriously. It's just like they are dead. They might as well be, because I don't get to hang out with them, I don't get to ever see them, or speak to them. All that's left are memories. And the internet is the thing that lets you hold seances.
This is worse than when Aimee left, because, for one, we all knew she'd be coming back one day. Plus I had a years notice. This.... this is three weeks notice, MAX! He has to leave before the 28th, so he could technically leave next week. So now we are trying to spend as much time as possible hanging out. I really hated having to meet up with him and I was going to break up with him on the 28th anyway. We'd talked about it in great length. And now he has to break up with me coz he's leaving. Ahahaha, the irony. I was so scared of being stuck in a long term relationship with no way out, well here is my escape. But why do I have to lose a friend, when all I wanted was to get rid of a bf?
This blows..
On the plus side though, I'm scoring his PC off him when he goes. Which is great because Legato... ugh. Maybe it really is time to put him down. My friends also insisting on buying me a load of stuff. His excuse is he 'wants me to be reminded of him wherever I look', lol! He bought me Lego Star Wars The Complete Saga for the PS3, and Dexter Season 1 boxset. He was gonna buy me an Aerith Action Figure but I paid for that myself because I'd feel bad if he seriously bought me everything.
So that's basically that. I'm at a point where I am thinking that I am destined to have shitty relationships for the rest of my life, or that the next bf will be lucky third. I will miss him terribly, and things won't be the same. But life goes on, and yes, there's always the internet.
I Miss You
I was always strong as long as we were a team
I crawled into somebody's heart who meant the world to me
love made me strong enough to be alone and set me free
but with my friends friends to the end is where I wanna be
with my friends friends to the end is where I wanna be
I don't need to
but I want to
sing with you
'cause I miss you
I don't need to
but I want to
sing with you
'cause I miss you