Ray of sunshine
Today, for the first time since the summer, I felt like I was actually approaching some sense of being "post-transition." I had a pretty average day at work, aside from the part where I forgot my phone at home and actually chatted with my officemates during lunch time and after a talk we all attended. I got this strong feeling like I belonged there, something I usually can't feel because I get hung up on how awkward it is that all my colleagues seem to know I'm trans (if they even acknowledge me as male at all). While I do feel a little guilty that this sense of being normal was facilitated by the fact that I work in an overwhelmingly male-dominated field and literally did not interact with even one woman all day, I kinda just want to bask in the feeling of being one of the guys again, instead of the outsider I've felt like since I came out.