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I've been really self-sufficient lately. And I think that's what built up to me breaking down last Saturday. My mom, grandma and I went shopping and it was just really overwhelming. My mom kept pushing me to try on all these things... I wanted a new dress for a party I'm going to. I had ordered one online, but then I got an email the day it was supposed to come in saying the store ran out. It was frustrating. It was even more frustrating that my mom would not stop.. It's like she was determined to find me something in our tiny mall... I tried on this one top and it was at a store I'm usually a size small in... and the top was a medium.. and it didn't fit. I couldn't even zip the back up. I've been feeling really awful about myself lately so that didn't help at all. I ended up breaking down and crying that day pretty bad. My mom came to talk to me, but I still don't think she understands...
Following that, I've been trying to be better about what I'm eating and I've started getting up at 730 every morning to work out. This morning, however, I decided to take a break and I am going to work out this afternoon with Alaina instead. I've been doing full body lifts MWF and then going for long, fast-paced walks on TR. My legs kill, but it's definitely a good pain. At least I know it'll make me feel better about myself.
I went to my first costume drawing session at the MFA last night. It was really intriguing, but I ended up having to leave because I was so hungry. My stomach killed. It was honestly one of the worst pains I've ever experienced.... And I thought nothing would come close to getting a dry socket or trying to walk after tearing my knee cap off. But I guess when your body is used to getting fed, it doesn't like not getting fed. I was hungry when I left, so by two hours later the pain was almost crippling.
I guess I've just been having a rough time lately with self esteem... ):
Following that, I've been trying to be better about what I'm eating and I've started getting up at 730 every morning to work out. This morning, however, I decided to take a break and I am going to work out this afternoon with Alaina instead. I've been doing full body lifts MWF and then going for long, fast-paced walks on TR. My legs kill, but it's definitely a good pain. At least I know it'll make me feel better about myself.
I went to my first costume drawing session at the MFA last night. It was really intriguing, but I ended up having to leave because I was so hungry. My stomach killed. It was honestly one of the worst pains I've ever experienced.... And I thought nothing would come close to getting a dry socket or trying to walk after tearing my knee cap off. But I guess when your body is used to getting fed, it doesn't like not getting fed. I was hungry when I left, so by two hours later the pain was almost crippling.
I guess I've just been having a rough time lately with self esteem... ):