What can I do
It's been six long years. Fist fights, him having feelings for my BEST FRIEND while she encourages me to look up my ex, the horrible things he has said, the horrible nights when he was away and wouldn't answer or cal back. I left when things got out of hand, but always accepted his apologies and promises of change:
Our financial life has most certainly fallen apart, so what I'm about to say should be GREAT news.... And it is. Just NOT for me. Nick got picked up for a tour. We got the call yesterday that he officially has the gig.
He will leave feb 1st...... And he will not set foot on Tennessee soil until a couple of days before December 2013. No trips home. Traveling with a "soul circus" and LIVING without me and with a lot of beautiful, exotic women. There is SO MUCH unresolved and I have already categorized this experience as me watching nick walk out of my life for good. Comfortably. I'm completely GUTTING myself to make sure his future is better than his past.....
But where will that leave me? He will gross 75,000.00 dollars in these nine months. There have been many times that I paid for all his stuff and made sure he had what he needed without question, but I'm not sticking around. A few days of "cant talk right now" and "I only drank ONE beer!"'s, and I'm out. I will set him up. Fix his mustang. Make sure his house is in order to return to, and I will probably just go lay In a corner and die. I'm going to give him what he never gave me. And then I'm going to sit back and remember allllllll the times I stood by him when it meant LOSS for me.
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