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Today is a bad day in the large scheme of things. I just couldnt bring myself to do the things I desperately needed to. I just want to punch my mom. She's so delusional it's unreal. She disappeared and became an extension of my Dad a loooong time ago, and that's what made me hell on heels when I was young. I didn't wanna be like her. I was determined not to be. So what did I do? The same shit, but that's over with and I still have this fuuuuuuucked up family to deal with. They're so wrapped up in their own little worlds it's insane. I know im different and I know why, but until I'm FAR away from here, it will be just like it is. Strange and foreign. Everything in my life.. Even things that haven't changed... Feel strange and foreign. For the first time in my life, my nieces and nephews aren't making me feel better. That's scary.
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