please god. let it stop raining.
jeff called again. i answered with hello. he said hi. i said hi. long pause. i didnt know what to say. i asked him how his date was going. he said he dropped her off. then another long pause.i was seriously feeling sick. i wanted to know if he kissed her. if he thought she was pretty. if they held hands. what they talked about. what she wore. did she try to get him to come inside. i refrained from asking. but i really wanted to ask. i asked him if he was coming over. he said he didnt want to work on lowes heros tonight. but we can still hang out.
im feeling kind of awkard. i feel very out of place. like i am in an unknown territory. actually loving someone. admitting it to myself first. then to other people. i read jenny what i wrote in my journal and she said she wanted to cry. she has always wanted us as a couple. she was glad that i finally admitted my feelings. i actually am too. i cant wait to see him. but then again im very nervous. what if he has enough. and there is nothing i can do to sway him. mom says. then he isnt the guy for me.
he said he would be here at 945. i have a full half an hour. ive already gotten dressed. ready as i will ever be.
right as we were about to hang up. i said. i missed you today. he said. me too.
im hoping for the best. wish me luck.
wonderful edit:
jeffery just called again. he said he was on his way. i said ok. then there was another long pause. he said. how about you bring some clothes for work tomorrow and spend the night. you can even have the bed.
i just said okay. i couldnt say anything else. i am so nervous. its not like ive never spent the night. i have my own tooth brush there. maybe this isnt anything to get excited over. maybe its just us being "friends" again. but i hope its more.
im feeling kind of awkard. i feel very out of place. like i am in an unknown territory. actually loving someone. admitting it to myself first. then to other people. i read jenny what i wrote in my journal and she said she wanted to cry. she has always wanted us as a couple. she was glad that i finally admitted my feelings. i actually am too. i cant wait to see him. but then again im very nervous. what if he has enough. and there is nothing i can do to sway him. mom says. then he isnt the guy for me.
he said he would be here at 945. i have a full half an hour. ive already gotten dressed. ready as i will ever be.
right as we were about to hang up. i said. i missed you today. he said. me too.
im hoping for the best. wish me luck.
wonderful edit:
jeffery just called again. he said he was on his way. i said ok. then there was another long pause. he said. how about you bring some clothes for work tomorrow and spend the night. you can even have the bed.
i just said okay. i couldnt say anything else. i am so nervous. its not like ive never spent the night. i have my own tooth brush there. maybe this isnt anything to get excited over. maybe its just us being "friends" again. but i hope its more.