hey allie...ugh i know eXACTLY how you feel. this week i've been so drained...i havent even cried since tuesday. so many things seem unimportant, but more things/people are bugging me now. and i know exactly how u feel when u said u've had illusions of her at school. everyday before acting i look at where libby used to sit and id think of how we'd be copying vocab from eachother before English next period. I hate it when some people try to deny me of my feelings telling me i wasnt a close friend..i hate that!..every memory counts no matter how close of a friend you were. no matter how many times you hung out...it all adds up....we're ALL friends...we ALL loved libby more than life itself. not once have i acted like i was a better friend than any of u, just so people could feel bad for me and it makes me sad knowing that some people have been doing that. ugh, i just get frustrated. i love libs with all my heart, i love you too allie. we'll get thru this together. you rock ;) love-stace
Yes. I hate that too. People try to say that I'm not as close to her as they were. Whatever. They don't know what they're talking about. Don't listen to them. It's crap. All these rumors flying, and things that are coming out of peoples' mouths just make me so angry.
I love you too Stace. Thanks...for everything. And yes, we will get through this together.
allie, theres no need to apologize for brekaing down on us. we know you really loved her and its hard for you. we love you so much and were always here for you, so oyu can break down whenever you want. and i know theres nothing i can say to make you feel better but you know you can call me at 3 in the morning if you need to, if you just need someone to talk to or cry to or even if you dont wanna say anything. so many things building up, and its hard. your freinds love you. i dont know how you feel, and it makes me feel helpless to think about it. but...at aleast its good to know that there are people feeling the same hurt and pain as you are. man , i love you so much and you mean so much to me and i wish this hadnt happpened and it hurts to know that your hurting so much. it really does. i do know that she meant a great deal to you. i know i didnt know her but, it really makes me sad to think about the circumstances and all her freinds that loved her so much and the pain everyone is feeling
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Gabs, I love you so so so much. I've never missed you more in my whole life then I do now. I just want to pull my hair out with frustration.
Thank you. For being here for me. For understanding, even when you don't. If that makes sense? Nothing I say seems to make sense anymore. But it means a lot. I know I've always got you, even if I feel like I never see you. You'll always be the closest to my heart, my dear blood sister. :)
Haha. I told my mom that and she was like "Awww I love her too!" So my crazy mother bought you a cup. Meanwhile, her DAUGHTER is malnourished because she won't buy her family food... :( My mother loves my friends more than me...
It's okay Buckman, we all love you...never forget that
It makes me so mad that people keep spreading rumors about how she died that aren't true. They didn't even freaking KNOW her, and they think they have the right to say how they "think" she died - it's a bunch of crap and I want to beat them all up.
I was waiting for the really full breakdown for me. I've cried, but reading your post really made we breakdown. I needed that...thanks :)
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I love you too Stace. Thanks...for everything. And yes, we will get through this together.
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Thank you. For being here for me. For understanding, even when you don't. If that makes sense? Nothing I say seems to make sense anymore. But it means a lot. I know I've always got you, even if I feel like I never see you. You'll always be the closest to my heart, my dear blood sister. :)
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Blah blah blah you know that stuff :) You can come over and kiss Squeak any time.
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I can't wait to kiss Squeak. I'm very excited.
Thanks Lord. I love you, always.
p.s. Your mom too. :)
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So my crazy mother bought you a cup.
Meanwhile, her DAUGHTER is malnourished because she won't buy her family food...
:( My mother loves my friends more than me...
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It makes me so mad that people keep spreading rumors about how she died that aren't true. They didn't even freaking KNOW her, and they think they have the right to say how they "think" she died - it's a bunch of crap and I want to beat them all up.
I was waiting for the really full breakdown for me. I've cried, but reading your post really made we breakdown. I needed that...thanks :)
Much love for Libby, Forever...
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I think we should beat them up. I get so angry.
Thanks for everything. I appreciate it more than you know.
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