Back entries from the compy.
These are entries from a journal I've been writing on my computer. Yes, journal, I've been cheating...
2/10/2008
I just finished writing this sentence for a paper:
“In writing about the role of Television as a parental figure in the lives of American youth, I hope to reveal the positive and negative manifest and latent values a person accidentally develops from faithfully sitting in front of the Television for a large portion of his or her upbringing.”
Right after I finished writing to that, I turned to Olivia and said:
“I just picked a boogie, and it feels like bacon bits.”
2/12 Insight while Dishwashing
There was Chinese food tonight at the Elliot Buffet. A tray came through the conveyor belt, and it was a fuckin’ mess. It had at least six plates, stacked with food in between and all kind of shit jammed into the glasses. It took me a solid minute to clear it, which backed up the entire line of trays.
While I was cleaning it, I found a fortune from a cookie that read:
2/13
I quit coffee. It triggers high blood sugar, and I am ridiculously addicted to it. I suppose by that logic, I should quit sugar. nah. Let’s see.
I have about eight papers to write for my secondary education, but I can’t stop cleaning and organizing. And playing video games. I want to play video games! I can’t wait for spring break. Olivia better let me play video games.
2/26
I got a letter today that told me I didn’t make the RA position. I am so confused. I deserved that position. I am feeling very low right now, and I wish I could get over it. Something just feels wrong. That’s what I was supposed to do. Everything I’ve done in school has been with the RA position in mind. I wish I could go back to that second interview and show them how much it really meant to me. And another thing I don’t get is how everyone (including administration and other RAs) has been telling me I was a shoe-in. I wish I knew what happened. Does this mean I probably won’t find a job teaching either?
4/1
I am the Residence Hall Association President for the academic year of 2008-2009! I have granted so many great new opportunities, but I am also being held accountable for being the spokesperson, the face, of RHA, which is both exciting and scary. Even though I didn’t get the RA position, I will still fall victim to the “fishbowl effect” next year. This summer I’m going to a conference-type session at a leadership institute called LeaderShape that costs $1,500 to attend. Ball State sends one person every year for free-THEY ARE SENDING ME!
I’m also attending the NACURH leadership conference, which is being paid for by my Hall. It’s so exciting to know that so many people want to pay for me to keep growing as a campus leader! I have a big smile right now, just thinking about it. I should be working on my teaching portfolio, which, I’ve decided, is going to SUCK. Hopefully, I can work on it this summer.
4/14
Tired. RHA. Hall Council. President. Exec. General Assembly. NACURH. Alpha Lambda Delta. Teaching. Olivia. Tired.
Um, yeah. It’s hard to be positive when I feel like I’m trying so hard to get ahead and I can barely keep up. I’m not denying myself enough. No sleep. No play. Less Olivia. More God!
4/14
I just realized that whenever my Oscar, Mac, wants my attention, he taps on the thermometer rapidly with his tailfin. I went over there to see what the noise was, and then he stopped and swam towards the edge of the glass. I went to sit back down, and he started tapping the thermometer again. I went back over, fed him, and sat back down, and he stopped! Um, look on the next page for pictures…
Look how big he’s gotten since October! He went from 1 inch to 7 inches in half a year!
4/24
First RHA meeting today! SO AWESOME!
7/15
Had NACURH 2 months ago…AWESOME!
One more week, and I’m putting down the shovel for a while. I want to be an orientation leader.
Had the RHA Exec Retreat last weekend…my execs are a little rowdy and inappropriate without a strong female presence in the E-board. They are doing great things, though. I guess sometimes you have to have to accept that someone isn’t perfect if they can do something well. I think if we can get some qualified women elected into the board, we will do great things as a balanced team. DIVE-IN and Rock the Halls! Haha, Sausage fest. Social at the Wet rock.
Retreat’s winning quote: “How are we gonna…ohhh no….can we start?”
-James Robinson, on the ice breaker.
I saw a car wreck today. Kid hit a semi going at least 60. I thought he was a goner. I ran out, nervous to find out if he was okay…or not. Not a scratch on him. He forced his way out of the totaled vehicle, and I asked him if he was alright.
“Fuck! My parents are gonna whoop my ass.”
All he cared about was his punishment, not that he could have-no, should have died. They’re a completely different breed in Illinois…
I’m at Leadershape. I was apprehensive to come here and give away my keys. I’ve met so many people, so many new friends. People who care about the future and are willing to step up and make a positive change…AWESOME!
9/4
As always, too busy to write here, but wanted to save this nugget for the future.
Life is like double-dutch. English class is like double-dutch. Sure, it’s safe on the outside of the ropes. There is no way to embarrass yourself on the outside. But to jump in, knowing that you will embarrass yourself but, nevertheless, jump back in; to know you are at your reflexes’ ends, doing everything you can to not embarrass yourself like you just did, but to grow; to know that you will keep growing for as long as you keep jumping in is the most thrill and satisfaction you will ever receive from life. Approach your life.
10/1
Here is my bulletin board this month. I hope I can keep this up!
2/10/2008
I just finished writing this sentence for a paper:
“In writing about the role of Television as a parental figure in the lives of American youth, I hope to reveal the positive and negative manifest and latent values a person accidentally develops from faithfully sitting in front of the Television for a large portion of his or her upbringing.”
Right after I finished writing to that, I turned to Olivia and said:
“I just picked a boogie, and it feels like bacon bits.”
2/12 Insight while Dishwashing
There was Chinese food tonight at the Elliot Buffet. A tray came through the conveyor belt, and it was a fuckin’ mess. It had at least six plates, stacked with food in between and all kind of shit jammed into the glasses. It took me a solid minute to clear it, which backed up the entire line of trays.
While I was cleaning it, I found a fortune from a cookie that read:
2/13
I quit coffee. It triggers high blood sugar, and I am ridiculously addicted to it. I suppose by that logic, I should quit sugar. nah. Let’s see.
I have about eight papers to write for my secondary education, but I can’t stop cleaning and organizing. And playing video games. I want to play video games! I can’t wait for spring break. Olivia better let me play video games.
2/26
I got a letter today that told me I didn’t make the RA position. I am so confused. I deserved that position. I am feeling very low right now, and I wish I could get over it. Something just feels wrong. That’s what I was supposed to do. Everything I’ve done in school has been with the RA position in mind. I wish I could go back to that second interview and show them how much it really meant to me. And another thing I don’t get is how everyone (including administration and other RAs) has been telling me I was a shoe-in. I wish I knew what happened. Does this mean I probably won’t find a job teaching either?
4/1
I am the Residence Hall Association President for the academic year of 2008-2009! I have granted so many great new opportunities, but I am also being held accountable for being the spokesperson, the face, of RHA, which is both exciting and scary. Even though I didn’t get the RA position, I will still fall victim to the “fishbowl effect” next year. This summer I’m going to a conference-type session at a leadership institute called LeaderShape that costs $1,500 to attend. Ball State sends one person every year for free-THEY ARE SENDING ME!
I’m also attending the NACURH leadership conference, which is being paid for by my Hall. It’s so exciting to know that so many people want to pay for me to keep growing as a campus leader! I have a big smile right now, just thinking about it. I should be working on my teaching portfolio, which, I’ve decided, is going to SUCK. Hopefully, I can work on it this summer.
4/14
Tired. RHA. Hall Council. President. Exec. General Assembly. NACURH. Alpha Lambda Delta. Teaching. Olivia. Tired.
Um, yeah. It’s hard to be positive when I feel like I’m trying so hard to get ahead and I can barely keep up. I’m not denying myself enough. No sleep. No play. Less Olivia. More God!
4/14
I just realized that whenever my Oscar, Mac, wants my attention, he taps on the thermometer rapidly with his tailfin. I went over there to see what the noise was, and then he stopped and swam towards the edge of the glass. I went to sit back down, and he started tapping the thermometer again. I went back over, fed him, and sat back down, and he stopped! Um, look on the next page for pictures…
Look how big he’s gotten since October! He went from 1 inch to 7 inches in half a year!
4/24
First RHA meeting today! SO AWESOME!
7/15
Had NACURH 2 months ago…AWESOME!
One more week, and I’m putting down the shovel for a while. I want to be an orientation leader.
Had the RHA Exec Retreat last weekend…my execs are a little rowdy and inappropriate without a strong female presence in the E-board. They are doing great things, though. I guess sometimes you have to have to accept that someone isn’t perfect if they can do something well. I think if we can get some qualified women elected into the board, we will do great things as a balanced team. DIVE-IN and Rock the Halls! Haha, Sausage fest. Social at the Wet rock.
Retreat’s winning quote: “How are we gonna…ohhh no….can we start?”
-James Robinson, on the ice breaker.
I saw a car wreck today. Kid hit a semi going at least 60. I thought he was a goner. I ran out, nervous to find out if he was okay…or not. Not a scratch on him. He forced his way out of the totaled vehicle, and I asked him if he was alright.
“Fuck! My parents are gonna whoop my ass.”
All he cared about was his punishment, not that he could have-no, should have died. They’re a completely different breed in Illinois…
I’m at Leadershape. I was apprehensive to come here and give away my keys. I’ve met so many people, so many new friends. People who care about the future and are willing to step up and make a positive change…AWESOME!
9/4
As always, too busy to write here, but wanted to save this nugget for the future.
Life is like double-dutch. English class is like double-dutch. Sure, it’s safe on the outside of the ropes. There is no way to embarrass yourself on the outside. But to jump in, knowing that you will embarrass yourself but, nevertheless, jump back in; to know you are at your reflexes’ ends, doing everything you can to not embarrass yourself like you just did, but to grow; to know that you will keep growing for as long as you keep jumping in is the most thrill and satisfaction you will ever receive from life. Approach your life.
10/1
Here is my bulletin board this month. I hope I can keep this up!
