the shitty realization of life
i came here to write stuff with a full mind and at the last moment it disappeared that allways happens to me. i had a fun weekend friday i saw big wig adam was there... pshhh boys are lame but anywho then i had this feeling where i needed to get out and go exploring in the world alone. no friends to bug me no specific place to go... . i walked to the el hopped on and just went around. i ended up at julies we all got trashed i came home the next morning and i felt a bit more grown up i dunno why.it was very strange. then i watched a bunch of pot heads start a small but considerable forest fire. it was scarey. the most uncomforting thing to see is a bunch of stoned teenage boys holding the fate of the adorable fuzzy forest creatures. on the up side im going to indaina june 28th where i will get to see jon and will. undoubtfully some of the neatest kids you will ever meet. being at julies reminded me of jon. it made me miss him. i know i dont know him all too well but he holds a semi significant spot in my life for reasons that shall go unmentioned and it will be nice to see him again.on that note im hungry and need food so ill be going now.