i can't.

[iheartacura]

i haven't felt pain like this in a long time.
or maybe i haven't felt this much, ever.
i am lost.
i hate myself, my life, everything around me.
the joke is on me.
i almost want to say i want to die.
no, that would just be giving in.
despite my intense sadness, i still am stubborn.
but why?
what's the point in being stubborn?
i revealed too much to him.
he kissed his ex.
while i was there at the party.
thats about it.
a brief synopsis of what happened.
i was stone cold sober.
congrats, this is what i get.