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Hey! It's been a long time, but I thought I'd give a quick update on my life.
Last week was one of the most emotionally overwhelming times I've ever experienced. Basically I learned about an incredible amount of evil and saddness in the world that I've always tried to ignore and rationalize. Starting with Virginia Tech., my classes last week covered The Holocaust, the genocide in Darfur, the war in Uganda, poverty in the global south, and the countless deaths in the Middle East. I was aware of all of these things before, but I never focused on them. I've always thought, "I care about Africa- I want to help the people in Africa and in the Sudan and I can!" But suddenly there was just too much to care about. The Virginia Tech shooting was tragic and heartbreaking, but then I had think, "should i care about each death in Iraq, or in the rest of the world, as much as I do for the college students in Virginia?" It seems impossible.
I know that this is kind of a heavy update, but I seriously changed a lot last week, and I lost some (not all- some!) of my optimism. But I think that it's okay. I came out of the week realizing that I can't fix the world, but I can try to make a dent somewhere. My poor mom, completely at a loss as to how to deal with my breakdown, offered to sponser a child in Uganda (we'd split the money every month), and I already feel better, just doing one small thing. And this whole thing made me just so much more confident as to what I want to do with my life. I want to go to Africa after college, in the peace-corps. Then I want to come back and work in a management position for some human-rights organization. And then I really want to open a theatre with the mission statement of altering society and helping the world. That's what I really want to do.
In other news, my housing situation for next year is coming together. I was worried about the amount of drinking that my friends do (I wasn't sure if i'd be uncomfortable), but I talked to them about it and i feel so much better. And I really am ready to get out of the dorms.
I finish my first year of college in exactly one week, and it feels unreal. Right after school gets out, Sarah, Kelsey, Lindsay, Stephen, Mimi, and I are driving down to Sarah's house in California and spending a week down there, in San Francisco and at the Boardwalk and at 6 Flags and stuff. I'm sooo excited!!!
Other stuff:
- I declared myself a political science major
- i have to do my scene for acting next period and i'm really nervous because my partner's super awkward
- i'm gonna miss my roommate an insane amount next year
- i'm working at Border's this summer
- i'm sick of winter weather
- freshman year was good :)
Left to do:
- communication essay and put together portfolio
- study for International Relations test
- study for Modern Foreign Governmnets test
- prepare 2 monologues
- finish theology final-essay
- spanish oral
- stop procrastinating on live journal!
Last week was one of the most emotionally overwhelming times I've ever experienced. Basically I learned about an incredible amount of evil and saddness in the world that I've always tried to ignore and rationalize. Starting with Virginia Tech., my classes last week covered The Holocaust, the genocide in Darfur, the war in Uganda, poverty in the global south, and the countless deaths in the Middle East. I was aware of all of these things before, but I never focused on them. I've always thought, "I care about Africa- I want to help the people in Africa and in the Sudan and I can!" But suddenly there was just too much to care about. The Virginia Tech shooting was tragic and heartbreaking, but then I had think, "should i care about each death in Iraq, or in the rest of the world, as much as I do for the college students in Virginia?" It seems impossible.
I know that this is kind of a heavy update, but I seriously changed a lot last week, and I lost some (not all- some!) of my optimism. But I think that it's okay. I came out of the week realizing that I can't fix the world, but I can try to make a dent somewhere. My poor mom, completely at a loss as to how to deal with my breakdown, offered to sponser a child in Uganda (we'd split the money every month), and I already feel better, just doing one small thing. And this whole thing made me just so much more confident as to what I want to do with my life. I want to go to Africa after college, in the peace-corps. Then I want to come back and work in a management position for some human-rights organization. And then I really want to open a theatre with the mission statement of altering society and helping the world. That's what I really want to do.
In other news, my housing situation for next year is coming together. I was worried about the amount of drinking that my friends do (I wasn't sure if i'd be uncomfortable), but I talked to them about it and i feel so much better. And I really am ready to get out of the dorms.
I finish my first year of college in exactly one week, and it feels unreal. Right after school gets out, Sarah, Kelsey, Lindsay, Stephen, Mimi, and I are driving down to Sarah's house in California and spending a week down there, in San Francisco and at the Boardwalk and at 6 Flags and stuff. I'm sooo excited!!!
Other stuff:
- I declared myself a political science major
- i have to do my scene for acting next period and i'm really nervous because my partner's super awkward
- i'm gonna miss my roommate an insane amount next year
- i'm working at Border's this summer
- i'm sick of winter weather
- freshman year was good :)
Left to do:
- communication essay and put together portfolio
- study for International Relations test
- study for Modern Foreign Governmnets test
- prepare 2 monologues
- finish theology final-essay
- spanish oral
- stop procrastinating on live journal!