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The flood of emotions that music can evoke is pretty much the most incredible thing.
This week is hell- I have class then work then play rehearsal (and we open tomorrow!) so basically I'm busy from 8 until 10:30. Then I do my homework and sleep. Last week was pretty bad too, and yesterday I'd reached my breaking point. Everything made me cry and I felt like I hadn't seen my friends in days.
Right now, in an effort to get something done, I'm skipping my communications class and I just put on the soundtrack to "The Last Five Years". I haven't listened to it since last year but I used to put it on on my late arrival days and belt it out while I got ready and ate breakfast. Somehow just listening to the music is bringing back everything that made up my senior of high school. I know every note and word and I'm remember theatre and rehearsals and driving to school with Stephanie and eating lunch outside and feeling overwhelmed from AP Euro and Pre-Calc and being confused over friends and fights and college and life. I feel like my heart is just connected to the music and is pulling out memory after memory in a row of vivid emotions. And it's helping so much right now. Maybe it's because as much as I love college I'm afraid of growing up. It's nice to know that my history of feelings isn't just gone now that high school is. And remember all this stuff makes me forget how incredibly overwhelmed I am right now.
Just to keep rambling... this weekend I went to Seattle with Sarah, Kelsey, and Lindsay. It was so much fun and Seattle is an amazing city!! And here is where I sound really innocent: I'd never seen anyone get high before and a guy at the apartment we were staying at (Sarah's friend's roommate) did and it was really weird because he started shaking. Does that normally happen? It smelled bad and looked gross. Then the next night he had a girl stay the night in his room and the next morning she came out to us (we were on the pull-out couch) and started reading my people magazine and asked how our night was and it was really awkward.
But I learned how to juggle (ish) and became a pro at guitar-hero (ish) and we saw an AMAZING play called "The Blue Door" which was a 2 man show about racism and about identifying the stereotypes of how black people are portrayed in theatre and film. It was a great trip, but I got no homework done and it basically screwed me over for the week.
My Spring Break is from March 10th to March 16th or so. I'm visiting Kelle at SOU for the first couple of days but after that I'm home and I miss so many people! I will definetly be calling you!
Now I'm off to lunch and then class and then work and then rehearsal. Ahhh...
This week is hell- I have class then work then play rehearsal (and we open tomorrow!) so basically I'm busy from 8 until 10:30. Then I do my homework and sleep. Last week was pretty bad too, and yesterday I'd reached my breaking point. Everything made me cry and I felt like I hadn't seen my friends in days.
Right now, in an effort to get something done, I'm skipping my communications class and I just put on the soundtrack to "The Last Five Years". I haven't listened to it since last year but I used to put it on on my late arrival days and belt it out while I got ready and ate breakfast. Somehow just listening to the music is bringing back everything that made up my senior of high school. I know every note and word and I'm remember theatre and rehearsals and driving to school with Stephanie and eating lunch outside and feeling overwhelmed from AP Euro and Pre-Calc and being confused over friends and fights and college and life. I feel like my heart is just connected to the music and is pulling out memory after memory in a row of vivid emotions. And it's helping so much right now. Maybe it's because as much as I love college I'm afraid of growing up. It's nice to know that my history of feelings isn't just gone now that high school is. And remember all this stuff makes me forget how incredibly overwhelmed I am right now.
Just to keep rambling... this weekend I went to Seattle with Sarah, Kelsey, and Lindsay. It was so much fun and Seattle is an amazing city!! And here is where I sound really innocent: I'd never seen anyone get high before and a guy at the apartment we were staying at (Sarah's friend's roommate) did and it was really weird because he started shaking. Does that normally happen? It smelled bad and looked gross. Then the next night he had a girl stay the night in his room and the next morning she came out to us (we were on the pull-out couch) and started reading my people magazine and asked how our night was and it was really awkward.
But I learned how to juggle (ish) and became a pro at guitar-hero (ish) and we saw an AMAZING play called "The Blue Door" which was a 2 man show about racism and about identifying the stereotypes of how black people are portrayed in theatre and film. It was a great trip, but I got no homework done and it basically screwed me over for the week.
My Spring Break is from March 10th to March 16th or so. I'm visiting Kelle at SOU for the first couple of days but after that I'm home and I miss so many people! I will definetly be calling you!
Now I'm off to lunch and then class and then work and then rehearsal. Ahhh...