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have you ever really thought back at yourself and how you are. Like stop right now..... no... now right now. look back at what you were if it wasn't too long ago it's easier but less dramatic. I look back on my freshman year. I was scared, emotional,unshure, dependent on others.... fuck I was young. Sophmore year I hadmore of an understanding of life, still scared as fuck and dependent on others.Junior year was a breaking point you know that feeling of fuck this fuck that, I'm on my own. And now that I'm out of high school I look back on everything.... I'm 18, have crazy ass friends, I look twords the future insted of in the past, I'm completly comfortable in my skin, and with everthing I've done, I don't regret much and the things I do regret is understandable.I'm not dependant on anyone but me, I pay for what I get and eat. right now in this time and moment I feel everything is fine, everything I'm am happy with it. I'm not mad at myself for some stupid ass reason, I don't feel that i have to loose weight, I'm not in a fight with anyone, my girls are having issues but thats why I love them. I'm great, when people ask "hi how are you" I'm always "I"m wonderfull and yourself?" I'm in a good place right now. My girls got my back no matter what, and my boyfriend is great. things just seem to get better.