rachelle, you stink

i couldnt find any christmas presents and had a lunch of chili and a rosemary and olive oil roll.

i took rachelle to the train station this morning, later i had a dinner of sharp chedder and a tomato with salt.

i got accepted into the illustration department today

its true, i have only been writing about the bad things and this journal has become an outlet and release for such things. so understand. i have been with rachelle for the past week or maybe longer, things are good. i am happy. watching movies in bed, laying around is nice, my favorite even. i wish i had one million dollars so it could be all that ( Read more... )

okay i must say im a little annoyed or in the least upset. it seems the more i think about this the more that it affects me, so ill see if writing this in my journal will quelm all of these feelings. so nate whispers into rachelles ear that he wants to suck her tits so on and so on. this is after i told nate the situation with her, and im not even ( Read more... )

too many girls like me. im tired of wasting my time and my youth. you are done and i mean it this time. im putting myself out there. two weeks from today i WILL have someone that loves me or will in the future. yes im drunk, but that doesnt matter. im tired. your moods and feelings are boring. i know them far to well. im tired of passing up smiles ( Read more... )

i went to motherfucker tonight, i danced close with a number of different attractive girls. but nothing comes out of it. so now im only more lonley and isolated that before. i mean, its fun and exciting at the moment. but damnit, i want them to be my girlfriend not jsut dance partner, im incredibly clingy and pathetic, but thats alright. i dont ( Read more... )

so diana has moved in and its really good, although i get the feeling that she is starting to not like me so much. its fine i guess. i think they all think im insane and wierd, thats fine also. amanda has a boyfriend, yet another let down. maybe if i had the courage to talk to girls i could end up with a girlfriend. thats all that i really want, i ( Read more... )

i hate growing accostume to sleeping with someone. its terrible. i cant sleep. my eyes wont close.