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So my mom is cynical.
She won't let me hang out with my best friend because she's BISEXUAL, she'll only let me hang out with my new friends who are in this international program (it's for smart kids) and she's not letting me hang out with my best boy friend who I haven't seen in three years because she thinks he just wants to fuck me. Like what the fuck? Closeminded much?
So I was texting my best boy friend in seattle and we discussed my mother for like two hours, and because I had gotten into an argument with her last week, she wasn't paying my phone bill for next month, and it was getting shut off on Friday, so I left it at home before I went to school.
My mother, being the untrusting woman that she is, decides to go through my phone and read all of my texts. I get home and every single electronic I have is gone, save for my laptop, but that's only because she takes away the DSL. I try to tell her that that's my opinion, but she doesn't want to hear any of it, so she just leaves for work and hasn't talked to me since Friday. I'm really fucking pissed, partially at myself for not deleting the texts, but mostly at her because the argument we had on Thursday made her look at my phone. She even had the balls to say to me that the reason why I was being such a bitch lately is because I was mad at her FOR GIVING BIRTH TO MY TWO MONTH OLD BROTHER.
I am so sick of this.
The morning after that I found out everything I was such an emotional wreck that I tried to slit my wrists with a pair of scissors. Honestly. It hurt like a fucking whore (no shit), but there's this little nick on my left wrist.
So, like usual, I have to be silent and not talk to anybody and do everything that she says if I ever hope to see any of my friends again.
I love my life.
And don't you fucking dare say that I wasn't respecting her. This is just a summary of everything, I only have a few minutes before she gets home and I have to get off.
She won't let me hang out with my best friend because she's BISEXUAL, she'll only let me hang out with my new friends who are in this international program (it's for smart kids) and she's not letting me hang out with my best boy friend who I haven't seen in three years because she thinks he just wants to fuck me. Like what the fuck? Closeminded much?
So I was texting my best boy friend in seattle and we discussed my mother for like two hours, and because I had gotten into an argument with her last week, she wasn't paying my phone bill for next month, and it was getting shut off on Friday, so I left it at home before I went to school.
My mother, being the untrusting woman that she is, decides to go through my phone and read all of my texts. I get home and every single electronic I have is gone, save for my laptop, but that's only because she takes away the DSL. I try to tell her that that's my opinion, but she doesn't want to hear any of it, so she just leaves for work and hasn't talked to me since Friday. I'm really fucking pissed, partially at myself for not deleting the texts, but mostly at her because the argument we had on Thursday made her look at my phone. She even had the balls to say to me that the reason why I was being such a bitch lately is because I was mad at her FOR GIVING BIRTH TO MY TWO MONTH OLD BROTHER.
I am so sick of this.
The morning after that I found out everything I was such an emotional wreck that I tried to slit my wrists with a pair of scissors. Honestly. It hurt like a fucking whore (no shit), but there's this little nick on my left wrist.
So, like usual, I have to be silent and not talk to anybody and do everything that she says if I ever hope to see any of my friends again.
I love my life.
And don't you fucking dare say that I wasn't respecting her. This is just a summary of everything, I only have a few minutes before she gets home and I have to get off.