ok... i can do this....
i CAN be single. i WILL be free. i REFUSE to get back together with him. refuse. i can do this. i will not be bullied around just because HE is selfish and insecure. i will not be spoken to like a conniving whore or like a child. i will not be treated like a slut and pretend that it is love. i do not love him. i can do this......... ughhhh i wish i believed myself....... fuck
that fucking asshole though. he has the nerve to come over here at like 5 in the morning and scare the shit out of my cousin and my sisters friend while he's looking for me. then since he didnt go upstairs into my sister's room, he didn't find me, and so he sends me an email saying how he cleverly deduced i was sleeping at "my other boyfriend's" house. RIGHT. i fucking WISH.
i replied even though it was a waste of time and is just going to encourage him to keep dogging me most likely, though maybe not. hopefully. all i said was "i was in my sisters room asshole"
like he'd fucking believe me anyways. that fucker is such a paranoid delusional. as if being a dumb fucking jock wasn't bad enough.
what the fuck was i doing with him for a year and a half? lowering my IQ by about a hunderd apparently. wow. next time i meet a guy i think i'm attracted to i should probably just quit while im ahead and run away from him before all the fucked up shit starts.
in other news, it is awesome to have my cousin and her friend down here for new years. we're gonna go see avatar in 3D after "dinner" or "supper".... whichever fuckin one signifies an early afternoon meal
fucking ham too
i hate ham
and dad cooked SO MUCH of it. YUCK. im ready to barf already.
i think tomorrow i am going to do some therapy shopping and maybe apply to some jobs. hopefully $65 is enough to get a new bra, jeans, a pair of slacks, a couple of shirts and maybe even a dress...... the way i shop it usually is, hopefully there are some sales goin on at the mall otherwise i guess i should do walmart
that fucking asshole though. he has the nerve to come over here at like 5 in the morning and scare the shit out of my cousin and my sisters friend while he's looking for me. then since he didnt go upstairs into my sister's room, he didn't find me, and so he sends me an email saying how he cleverly deduced i was sleeping at "my other boyfriend's" house. RIGHT. i fucking WISH.
i replied even though it was a waste of time and is just going to encourage him to keep dogging me most likely, though maybe not. hopefully. all i said was "i was in my sisters room asshole"
like he'd fucking believe me anyways. that fucker is such a paranoid delusional. as if being a dumb fucking jock wasn't bad enough.
what the fuck was i doing with him for a year and a half? lowering my IQ by about a hunderd apparently. wow. next time i meet a guy i think i'm attracted to i should probably just quit while im ahead and run away from him before all the fucked up shit starts.
in other news, it is awesome to have my cousin and her friend down here for new years. we're gonna go see avatar in 3D after "dinner" or "supper".... whichever fuckin one signifies an early afternoon meal
fucking ham too
i hate ham
and dad cooked SO MUCH of it. YUCK. im ready to barf already.
i think tomorrow i am going to do some therapy shopping and maybe apply to some jobs. hopefully $65 is enough to get a new bra, jeans, a pair of slacks, a couple of shirts and maybe even a dress...... the way i shop it usually is, hopefully there are some sales goin on at the mall otherwise i guess i should do walmart