i am colorblind. i see in gray.

[ignorantspine]

you know, i'm really, really trying to not get discouraged. but it's not working. and i am. discouraged, that is. i'm being pulled in two directions and i don't know if either of them are right. and i really wish i could just explain what i mean, but i feel like i'm under too much pressure to correctly communicate everything that's going on

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[charlesdarney]

Some day, some day in the future I am going to learn how to read music, the reason is simple. I am going to need it. Why? One day I am going to own a piano, there's no doubt, I am going to own a piano. Why? Because I want to play colourblind on it and sing it too. There's no doubt I will do all these things, absolutely no doubt, do you hear me, no doubt at all. Truthfully I wish I could be doing it right now, but I cannot, I am torn, battered and bruised in place that doesn't allow it. One day this place will no longer hold me and that place is what I am working towards, nothing can stop me because I believe in myself. Noone can control me because they have no access to my spirit, it is here inside that I am free, free to make choices, plans and free to dream. This is what I am, that is what I will be; there is no doubt, I am in control. Just right now I am stuck, but that's ok, it's hard now, but that's fine.
When I listen to you, I hear me so much.
I listen a lot....