Eh..
Nights are so bad. I guess i'm just afraid of being alone. I know I have to get through this because running back to Omar wouldn't help..and looking for refuge in Chris wouldn't be fair to him. So I'm just staying away from relationships right now. I haven't been alone for 3 years and...I guess I forgot how lonely it feels. Don't get me wrong, I'm having fun, talking to people, not having the weight of that relationship on my shoulders. But it really sucks when I can't kiss...when I can't feel any real physical comfort from anyone..and I don't mean sex. Hm, I'll get over it, I'll move on. I just hope Omar can do the same.