apocalypse please
so i figured out exactly what i was doing wrong with another project for art class and cracked out a rough version of it in a few hours... (i really hate fucking illustrator) my student loan disbursement seems to get farther and farther out, leaving me knocking on the doors of family in order to pay bills, which sucks, i am offically down to under 10 bux in my savings, it would just be nice to have one of the random side projects im doing, or looking at doing actually pay me money for my work, i mean i have something like 6 posters of pigs to draw, cartoons for the school paper, writing for self, i mean shit im a busy little fuck but a very frustrated one too, i just need something to but a landmine under my creative juices and just shake shit up, at least my art is looking compitant again, with the practice being done during other classes, but its still not paying and that bothers me.
so in an effort to get something started, ive downloaded a lot of random music (outkast to muse to teenage bottlerocket, even some patti smith) in addition to getting in touch with old favorites like mary prankster. and i am thinking of things more outside my style, drawing with different line strokes other than my old fallbacks, once again just wihs i had a job to split this all with. something to do that would just pay some of the bills in the meantime, rather than agonizing weather a dollar for a grilled cheese at the college will break the bank with me...
its stressful, but ive got jill and i havent really hit bottom yet, i am prone to freakouts due to stress lately, tearfilled mornings in the car that end with me missing my math class cause i cant pull my shit together.... it hurts, really badly, but theres nothing to do but march forward like nothings happening, as the razor wind darts my cheek, as the blizzard holds me back, just keep moving forward... itll work. it has to.
so in an effort to get something started, ive downloaded a lot of random music (outkast to muse to teenage bottlerocket, even some patti smith) in addition to getting in touch with old favorites like mary prankster. and i am thinking of things more outside my style, drawing with different line strokes other than my old fallbacks, once again just wihs i had a job to split this all with. something to do that would just pay some of the bills in the meantime, rather than agonizing weather a dollar for a grilled cheese at the college will break the bank with me...
its stressful, but ive got jill and i havent really hit bottom yet, i am prone to freakouts due to stress lately, tearfilled mornings in the car that end with me missing my math class cause i cant pull my shit together.... it hurts, really badly, but theres nothing to do but march forward like nothings happening, as the razor wind darts my cheek, as the blizzard holds me back, just keep moving forward... itll work. it has to.