reaching goals.
Well i just got my paycheck yesterday and i have to say i was just shy of 300. which for working at a gas station thats damn good. But lets just back track for a second. The week b4 i didnt really put any money away and i was just getting so damn discouraged, like i only had like 35 dollars in the bank and i wasnt getting anywhere. But this week i put in 230 dollars so i am up to 265 or sumthing like that. which means in a couple of weeks i will be able to get my car fixed. doesnt mean that i will be able to drive it though. Because i need to aquire some insurance. but that wont take that much to do. income tax is coming up and i think that i am going to do very well with my return, over a thousand sounds good enough to me. but most of that check is going to go to an apartment. Cause like i said in my previous posts i need to get outa hea. im 22 and i livin at home, depressing. anyways i havent talked to n e of my friends from job corps i wonder how they are all doing.
Oh i cant wait to go to work man, i am just so bored being in this house all day. now let me explain something. I live in a very small town with nothing but trees and a few streets. boring. i want to get somewhere, where i have access to something like a mall a club a bar, well there is a bar in town but just one thats not enough. i want to be close to my friends and stuff. not stuck in the stix. idk, i just hate not being able to go n e where.
Update on the mom situation:
I am very proud of myself for detaching myself from her. No one really understands the amount of problems i have endured with her in my life. its been about 3 months now that i havent talked to her. i wonder if she gets it yet. Probably not, because when my brother didnt talk to her for like 2 years she never got it then. but now that i see things for how they really are i can understand why he did it. but im not going to crack like he did. i going to stick with my guns and forget about her.
The reason why i decided to do this is simply this. For the fourth time in my life that i can remember, she has put me out either in my fathers care or out on the street. She is my mother and no parent should let there child sleep in their car. Well thats what i was doing for about 2 months. How did i manage that you ask. Well there is this place in providence its called the river strip, and it was perfect for me with how my schedule worked i would work at tim hortons over night and then mcdonalds during the afternoon night shift so i have about a couple hours in between to just relax in my car and sleep at the strip. but the thing about the strip is, it is a gay hang out. where men go to fool around with other men. sad that i know this but its true. idk how i ended up getting on this topic, oh yes my mom. well I was having problems and i didnt have n e place to go, so she said that if i hand over my paychecks so she can put it in a seprate account for me to save for an appartment i could come back and stay with her. Okay not a big deal, so i stayed there for a couple of days and come payday i called her up and said " im going to cash one of my checks so i can get something to eat" well that didnt really sit to well with her. so we argued about it and i said that apparently this isnt going to work because your telling me that i cant get anything to eat until you cash my check which was like in two days. So i said to her maybe i should just stay in my car. Well she came back and said "thats a good idea." I was on fire at this point and i said to her " you know what, Have a nice fucking life you disgust me as a parent, i would never let my kids sleep in there car for no reason. i hope that my brother is going to be there for you because i wont. goodbye" and i hung up on her. WEll she tried calling me back and i just didnt answer. finally i sent her a txt message saying that if you call me again i will change my numba.
So thanxgiving day i get a phone call from my brother asking me how i was doing and all that jazz, didnt really like the fact that i spent thanksgiving with my father. And then we got into a fit about what i should do about mom and all that stuff. got all heated and now we are not speaking.
Around christmas i get a phone call from my uncle who mind you lives in L.A. so he doesnt really know all the things he needs to know to put his two cents in. but he did and i simply told him that "im finished" and that i was tired of all the bullshit that comes with speaking to her and that im done trying. nothing i do is ever good enough for her. I tried to explain to him what happend and he only got one side of the story from my mom. and thats all he will believe. So anyways needless to say i deleted everyone from my cell phone and to remember there numbers is very impossible.
I havent gotten a call sence, but i think im going to call my papa an chachi one of these days just to let them know that i am okay.
On to better things. I have plans to get my own place come the end of february. Me and mike are going to try it out once again. but i swear if i catch anything like last time i will be killing him. but i cant wait. i want a nice place, not like in central falls where the second language is english. but they had one of the best chinesse places i have ever been too.
OH i miss my freedom.
tats all for today,
kisses
luv yas.
Oh i cant wait to go to work man, i am just so bored being in this house all day. now let me explain something. I live in a very small town with nothing but trees and a few streets. boring. i want to get somewhere, where i have access to something like a mall a club a bar, well there is a bar in town but just one thats not enough. i want to be close to my friends and stuff. not stuck in the stix. idk, i just hate not being able to go n e where.
Update on the mom situation:
I am very proud of myself for detaching myself from her. No one really understands the amount of problems i have endured with her in my life. its been about 3 months now that i havent talked to her. i wonder if she gets it yet. Probably not, because when my brother didnt talk to her for like 2 years she never got it then. but now that i see things for how they really are i can understand why he did it. but im not going to crack like he did. i going to stick with my guns and forget about her.
The reason why i decided to do this is simply this. For the fourth time in my life that i can remember, she has put me out either in my fathers care or out on the street. She is my mother and no parent should let there child sleep in their car. Well thats what i was doing for about 2 months. How did i manage that you ask. Well there is this place in providence its called the river strip, and it was perfect for me with how my schedule worked i would work at tim hortons over night and then mcdonalds during the afternoon night shift so i have about a couple hours in between to just relax in my car and sleep at the strip. but the thing about the strip is, it is a gay hang out. where men go to fool around with other men. sad that i know this but its true. idk how i ended up getting on this topic, oh yes my mom. well I was having problems and i didnt have n e place to go, so she said that if i hand over my paychecks so she can put it in a seprate account for me to save for an appartment i could come back and stay with her. Okay not a big deal, so i stayed there for a couple of days and come payday i called her up and said " im going to cash one of my checks so i can get something to eat" well that didnt really sit to well with her. so we argued about it and i said that apparently this isnt going to work because your telling me that i cant get anything to eat until you cash my check which was like in two days. So i said to her maybe i should just stay in my car. Well she came back and said "thats a good idea." I was on fire at this point and i said to her " you know what, Have a nice fucking life you disgust me as a parent, i would never let my kids sleep in there car for no reason. i hope that my brother is going to be there for you because i wont. goodbye" and i hung up on her. WEll she tried calling me back and i just didnt answer. finally i sent her a txt message saying that if you call me again i will change my numba.
So thanxgiving day i get a phone call from my brother asking me how i was doing and all that jazz, didnt really like the fact that i spent thanksgiving with my father. And then we got into a fit about what i should do about mom and all that stuff. got all heated and now we are not speaking.
Around christmas i get a phone call from my uncle who mind you lives in L.A. so he doesnt really know all the things he needs to know to put his two cents in. but he did and i simply told him that "im finished" and that i was tired of all the bullshit that comes with speaking to her and that im done trying. nothing i do is ever good enough for her. I tried to explain to him what happend and he only got one side of the story from my mom. and thats all he will believe. So anyways needless to say i deleted everyone from my cell phone and to remember there numbers is very impossible.
I havent gotten a call sence, but i think im going to call my papa an chachi one of these days just to let them know that i am okay.
On to better things. I have plans to get my own place come the end of february. Me and mike are going to try it out once again. but i swear if i catch anything like last time i will be killing him. but i cant wait. i want a nice place, not like in central falls where the second language is english. but they had one of the best chinesse places i have ever been too.
OH i miss my freedom.
tats all for today,
kisses
luv yas.