Can't Stand my life
Well me and my mother fought yesterday, what a big surprise. Someone at my work is selling their car and it is in fairly good condition right, it is a 1996 nissan maxima and it has leather interior and a cd/tape deck, and rims and heated seats, stuff like that and he is only selling it for like 4,000 and i thought that my mother would like to help me, but i was wrong. I asked her about it and she thought that i was crazy. Yes i do owe money to the bank like 290 but thats no big deal. And i owe my mother like 245 which is really crazy. Oh she makes me so mad i just want to spit in her face and say fuck you. I told her that i am not going to look for another job until i have a car. She told me to do what ever i want. I told her that i am not walking all over creation just to work all day. Im just really aggrivated because i work and i have nothing to show for it. And the reason why i bounce checks is because i have no money and i want what i want when i want it. And my mother doesnt really understand that i need a car. She all her life had her father to get her a car everytime she crashed hers, its like she had a back up car on standby. And what really pisses me off is like my brother got his first car from my grandfather and he told me that he would get me a car, but something always comes up. My brother has no problem asking my parents and relatives for money or whatever, but me i feel really bad if someone gets me something but right now i really need help and no one is there to help me. My brother has totally detached himself from the entire family and talks to no one, but me i am still here respecting my family and making an effort to appriciate them, but of course it is expected of me to be there. Every car that i have owned i had to pay for myself thats like 5 cars and now i could really use someones help. My friend mike said that i should go to a place called "ziggys" I guess it is some like second hand car sales place. So i think that i will go there tommorrow. Its like a hundred down and i can get a newer car. I dont know anymore i just get really upset at those people whos first car is like a brand new mazda and i wanted to like pop his tires and scratch his car up because he didn't have to pay for it.
It is time for a change:
I told my mother yesterday that i am only going to give her the rent and thats it. like sometimes she askes me to give her more money so that she can pay the rent on time. I don't care anymore thats her responsiblity. I totally feel like she is draining me of my money, and i am sick of it.
My mom has it easy:
All my mother does all day is sit at a desk and talk on the phone, yeah it can be stressful but like i feel i have it ten times worse. I know fast food doesnt sound that stressful but it really is, especially when your stuck in drive through for like 10 hours at a time. And i told my mom that taco bell is like it for now until i get a car. I thought that parents want to see their kids do well and that they would help them in anyway, well i don't have that and it pisses me off. Its like my brother used up all the helping my parents and grandparents are willing to give and i am left with nothing.
Its crazy:
I just want to get on a bus of a plane and never come back, kind of like what my uncle did when he was my age. Just pack what i can and leave. I dont really care where i end up, just not around here.
All i want is a little trust:
My mom has this thing where she doenst like that i would be able to make the payments on time with her. She would be putting her credit on the line just to help me out, yeah it is a strech and a gamble, but i just want some trust so that i can move forward and not be stuck with living with my mom, and getting no where. If i had a car i could find a better paying job, and like my mom doenst see that. Maybe a couple of weeks ago she tells me that she would help me because thats what she was going to do with my brother, and she was all ready to go to the car dealer ship with my brother and get his a nice car and she didnt because my brother had already gotten a car, well she needs to do that with me,
bye yall.
It is time for a change:
I told my mother yesterday that i am only going to give her the rent and thats it. like sometimes she askes me to give her more money so that she can pay the rent on time. I don't care anymore thats her responsiblity. I totally feel like she is draining me of my money, and i am sick of it.
My mom has it easy:
All my mother does all day is sit at a desk and talk on the phone, yeah it can be stressful but like i feel i have it ten times worse. I know fast food doesnt sound that stressful but it really is, especially when your stuck in drive through for like 10 hours at a time. And i told my mom that taco bell is like it for now until i get a car. I thought that parents want to see their kids do well and that they would help them in anyway, well i don't have that and it pisses me off. Its like my brother used up all the helping my parents and grandparents are willing to give and i am left with nothing.
Its crazy:
I just want to get on a bus of a plane and never come back, kind of like what my uncle did when he was my age. Just pack what i can and leave. I dont really care where i end up, just not around here.
All i want is a little trust:
My mom has this thing where she doenst like that i would be able to make the payments on time with her. She would be putting her credit on the line just to help me out, yeah it is a strech and a gamble, but i just want some trust so that i can move forward and not be stuck with living with my mom, and getting no where. If i had a car i could find a better paying job, and like my mom doenst see that. Maybe a couple of weeks ago she tells me that she would help me because thats what she was going to do with my brother, and she was all ready to go to the car dealer ship with my brother and get his a nice car and she didnt because my brother had already gotten a car, well she needs to do that with me,
bye yall.