Current Events
Well i have been trying to work a lot, but that doesn't seem to subside my endless nights of feeling numb. Almost everynight after work I smoke at least one bowl a night, but even that doesn't seem to help. I get up the next day dreading that i have to go to work, and i hate what i do too. I haven't been able to talk to a lot of my friends lately, because of the fact that i didn't really have a phone. Today and tomarrow i have off from work, (yeah) for me. So me and my friend mike are going to the mirror bar, we went there twice last week. It was fun but i just danced and stuff, the dancers and the men that carry the drinks are really hott.
My stomake hurts right now, i don't know why. I havent been eating as much lately either, i don't know if it is due to the lack of dating or just that i am sick of what i see in the mirror. It is kind of weird with me, sometimes i like what i see when i have cloths on but other times its just plain horrable. So i ask the world, and some of my close friends, what does it take to meet someone? One of my friends told me that i need to grow some balls, well i don't think that is true, i just can't go up to a guy that i don't know and start a converstation, especially if i am interested in that person. It is very hard, plus i don't get out much due to work. I worked saturday right, and i worked from like 5 in the afternoon to like 3 in the morning, and that sunday my mom woke me up so that i could start painting her room, what a bitch like seriously, i was so tired and not really in the mood to do anything and yet again i am moving furniture, and then started to paint her room. An then my mom started in with the wine, now my mother doesnt drink, but she was such a mess like i mean emotionally crazed i felt so bad and all i wanted to do was finish her room so that i could go and hide in my room.
My stomake hurts right now, i don't know why. I havent been eating as much lately either, i don't know if it is due to the lack of dating or just that i am sick of what i see in the mirror. It is kind of weird with me, sometimes i like what i see when i have cloths on but other times its just plain horrable. So i ask the world, and some of my close friends, what does it take to meet someone? One of my friends told me that i need to grow some balls, well i don't think that is true, i just can't go up to a guy that i don't know and start a converstation, especially if i am interested in that person. It is very hard, plus i don't get out much due to work. I worked saturday right, and i worked from like 5 in the afternoon to like 3 in the morning, and that sunday my mom woke me up so that i could start painting her room, what a bitch like seriously, i was so tired and not really in the mood to do anything and yet again i am moving furniture, and then started to paint her room. An then my mom started in with the wine, now my mother doesnt drink, but she was such a mess like i mean emotionally crazed i felt so bad and all i wanted to do was finish her room so that i could go and hide in my room.