long time no see
i thought that i might drop by and say whats up! ive had alot happen since ive last updated.....so much that i dont think i can remember half of it right now. but basically 3 ppl died this summer. my friend jessica and her bf mike.....in a car accident in the middle of july....its still so weird that their not around. i hate it. this kid chris copanas from liverpool i was friends with a few yrs ago died like 2 weeks ago in a motorcycle accident. that was pretty bad. joshs dog lucifer (my favorite lol) attacked his stepdad sunday so he had to send him to his dads house and josh has been real upset and so have i. cuz he has water on the brain so i think hes beginning to get sicker. there has been so much stupid, sad shit that has happened this summer that just pisses me off. overall im ok, im hangin in there, im just ready for it all to stop and something really positive to happen. im excited for school to start so i can really try and prove to myself that i can do what i want to do, and im gonna get decent grades and be proud of the work im doing. which is something that ive never experienced. :) and im ready to start a new time in my life. i want to get over everything this summer and realize that thank god i still have the ppl in my life that i do and to be happy about it. of all this shit that has happened, i am still happy and still trying to make the best of it. i have my moments and cry and freak out, but overall i think im ok. i really miss jessica and i think of her almost everyday and it is so fucked up that she had to go, but at least she didnt go alone. she had mike, the love of her life (i no...sounds corny but true) that went right with her, and that makes me feel better to no that they r both together, forever. well im gonna stop all this sappiness....and go hang out with sara.... i miss everyone! *Ash