steady rollin'
I finished the semester alive...barely. Still kept my 4.0, though, so I'm happy.
I miss TNG. He helped me so much on the last day. It was noon, my dad was coming at one, and I had nothing packed. So he taught me the garbage bag method. Then he hauled everything down because I'm weak and my dad's leg was really hurting. He charmed my dad through a lunch, and was just generally wonderful.
I went down to visit him last week because he got his wisdom teeth out and it was a lot of fun. I don't think his mother likes me very much. :$ I want to ask him about it, but it feels weird.
He's coming up this weekend to see his friend's play and he'll even stick around to spend time with me. I guess. If he has to.
I really like TNG and he treats me pretty well. He never takes me out on proper dates, which I guess (?) is weird. I'd kind of like him to actually take me out to dinner and let me get all dressed up and girly and cute and such, but if that's his worst offense, I can live with it.
I'm just super insecure. He knows tons of really, really pretty girls. Like, gorgeous girls. I don't really know why he likes me. I'm not that pretty and I'm weird and annoying. I can't tell if it's just old insecurities from Ross haunting me because he always made me feel inadequate or if TNG really is just too good for me. He assures me that he likes me a lot and that this relationship is "as long term as [I] want it to be," but a summer apart is a long time...I have the creeping feeling that he's going to find someone prettier, more interesting, etc.
I'm working a ton this summer. I work one job 8:30 A.M. - 5 P.M. and the other job 5:00 P.M. - 11:00 P.M. That's like...14.5 hours a day. Or something close to it. I finally cracked and told the second job that they could only schedule me three days a week and weekends. I need sleep.
I hung out with Ross. It wasn't weird at all. Just friends having dinner. It was good. I meant to mention something about spring break, but I figured I'd just let it die instead of making stuff awkward, which I have a talent for doing.
I miss TNG. He helped me so much on the last day. It was noon, my dad was coming at one, and I had nothing packed. So he taught me the garbage bag method. Then he hauled everything down because I'm weak and my dad's leg was really hurting. He charmed my dad through a lunch, and was just generally wonderful.
I went down to visit him last week because he got his wisdom teeth out and it was a lot of fun. I don't think his mother likes me very much. :$ I want to ask him about it, but it feels weird.
He's coming up this weekend to see his friend's play and he'll even stick around to spend time with me. I guess. If he has to.
I really like TNG and he treats me pretty well. He never takes me out on proper dates, which I guess (?) is weird. I'd kind of like him to actually take me out to dinner and let me get all dressed up and girly and cute and such, but if that's his worst offense, I can live with it.
I'm just super insecure. He knows tons of really, really pretty girls. Like, gorgeous girls. I don't really know why he likes me. I'm not that pretty and I'm weird and annoying. I can't tell if it's just old insecurities from Ross haunting me because he always made me feel inadequate or if TNG really is just too good for me. He assures me that he likes me a lot and that this relationship is "as long term as [I] want it to be," but a summer apart is a long time...I have the creeping feeling that he's going to find someone prettier, more interesting, etc.
I'm working a ton this summer. I work one job 8:30 A.M. - 5 P.M. and the other job 5:00 P.M. - 11:00 P.M. That's like...14.5 hours a day. Or something close to it. I finally cracked and told the second job that they could only schedule me three days a week and weekends. I need sleep.
I hung out with Ross. It wasn't weird at all. Just friends having dinner. It was good. I meant to mention something about spring break, but I figured I'd just let it die instead of making stuff awkward, which I have a talent for doing.