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Today was my first attempt at limiting contact with Kris. Every book I've read says that the only way to get over someone is to have no contact with them for 60 days. I think that's a little ridiculous because some former couples actually want to remain friends and not having contact with them for that long might just challenge any hope of a friendship. However, after our recent talks I've realized that I don't want to be friends with Kris if he is going to remain acting the way he has been and treating me rudely. I don't want to hang out with someone who plays century club in the middle of the afternoon or gets high when people's parents are visiting. If I were to meet him today, and found out he was like this, I wouldn't give him the time of the day. I have grown past these activities and maybe that makes me old and boring, but I have a feeling it means I'm mature. Anyway, my first step was removing him from my msn list because I was constantly checking to see when he was online and some of our bigger arguments would happen there. If he wants to talk to me, he can message me, but I doubt this is going to happen. We had three hours of class together today as well. The first one he asked if he could sit beside me and I said sure and so we sat beside one another but didn't talk. The second class I went in and chose my seat and I think he got the hint because he sat somewhere else. After class I packed up and left and didn't wait around for him like I normally would. When I stopped at the bottom of the stairs to gather my stuff he walked by and we waved. I think he is going to respect me for stepping back and probably won't say anything about it. I thought I felt ok about it, but here I am feeling super depressed and upset. I just want to go home and curl up and cry for the rest of the night, but instead I'm going to full myself and go see someone speak on the roots of free trade. As if I haven't been doing enough homework and I don't have an eight page report due tomorrow that I haven't started. Break ups suck so much. All of my energy goes into getting through this while he just coasts along and doesn't bother thinking about anything and that is so, so frustrating. I wish he could just feel a quarter of the pain that I feel.